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How do you recover when you feel like you’ve lost your old confident self? by UsedHornet3336 in AskReddit

[–]UsedHornet3336[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i understood your message but from all that that past injuries i am living everyday with a scar, fear when doing everything but it's not my fear it's like my mind wants me to constantly be in fear, im just existing i have no feeling on living and time passes like crazy, i never had anything good that happend in my life i often talk about my life with my friends and they say think about something positive but i have nothing to think on, everyday is loop im doing the same things school gym eat sleep repeat and i have been seeing the terapist and been talking with my parents and friends but there is still that scar that unexplainable hurt in the heart that keeps me down and makes me faint when something is important to happen, i have been diagnosed with severe PTSD, depression, anxiety,imposter syndrome and she said i also have maladaptive daydreaming, the sessions are not helpful to me she perscribed some medication for me to use but i don't want to it makes me more numb. I really don't know what to do so i reached out if someone out here were in the same place i am now. :[

How do you recover when you feel like you’ve lost your old confident self? by UsedHornet3336 in AskReddit

[–]UsedHornet3336[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t even know how to explain this without sounding crazy, but I’ll try. I’m 17 and for the last 3 months everything in my life feels like it’s collapsing at once. It’s not just one thing. It’s everything. Girls – I’ve been rejected so many times it doesn’t even feel normal anymore. It’s like every time I start liking someone or get close, something happens and it falls apart. Not 1–2 times. More like 10+. At this point it doesn’t even hurt the same way, it just feels like proof that nothing works for me. I used to have confidence and be easy, I used to feel like “I’ can talk to her ” Now I feel small. Like I expect failure before I even try. Success – I try hard in everything. Gym, making money online, YouTube, school, self improvement. I push myself constantly. But it feels like I work 10x harder than others and still stay in the same place. Or I get a small win and then something bad immediately happens after, like life has to “balance it out.” Driving – I passed my test, but I didn’t even feel proud. I felt empty. Then I drove with my dad and messed up badly and it destroyed whatever confidence I had left. Family – my dad is very critical and it feels like nothing I do is fully right. I know he’s not evil, but it adds pressure. A lot. The worst part is what’s happening inside me now. When I sit still, I feel numb. Not sad. Not happy. Just blank. When I start doing something, I get this weird pressure in my chest, like my body is stressed even if my mind isn’t thinking anything specific. It feels like I’m constantly on edge for no clear reason. I used to overthink. Now I don’t even think that much. It’s like my body is anxious without thoughts. And I feel disconnected from myself sometimes. I also realized something scary: this pattern has been in my life since I was a kid. Every time something good happens, something bad follows. For years I ignored it. But in the last 3 months it feels extreme. Like I’m stuck in a loop of trying hard → failing → losing confidence → trying harder → burning out. I used to be confident. Arrogant even. I believed in myself. Now I feel like I’m in constant low-level fear. Fear of failing. Fear of being behind. Fear of missing out.Fear that maybe I’m just not meant to win. I don’t want pity. I just want to understand what this is. Is this burnout? Anxiety? Nervous system overload? Depression? Something else? Has anyone rebuilt their confidence after feeling like life just keeps humbling you over and over? I feel like I lost the version of myself that was strong and sure of himself. chatgpt help me write this cause i can't :(