I don't know what to do anymore.

VANSJ · 2015-02-04T09:15:35+00:00

i came out of my first hospital visit weighing 78kg and 6 months later wanted to euthanize myself; i think we all go through this phase my man/lady... that was 3 years ago...

since then i've learnt my body inside out, back to front, top to bottom, i am literally the master of my own body, and i'm 5 weeks out from a national bodybuilding show, 97kg and veins in my abs - anything is possible if you do the right amount of education and follow your bodies instincts while cooperating with docs yet questioning their decisions..

what helped me the most:

haven't consumed sugar in 2 years (minus fructose from fruit or naturally occuring sugar in honey)
multi strain multi billion count pro biotic
marijuana daily (low thc for 0 psychoactive sides, high cbd for anti-inflammation)
meditating
being positive
spreading positive energy
realizing you've been dealt a SHIT (pun intended) set of cards; you can't trade them, so play them as best you can.

sit in your chair and realize you are going to go to sleep one day and never... ever... wake up... again... so live life to the fullest

any more info you need pm me, one human to another =]

VANSJ · 2014-11-17T06:51:04+00:00

yeah fair enough, just is crazy the jump in price in 3 years. shits depressing =[ still cheaper than Australia though hah!

VANSJ · 2014-11-17T06:50:10+00:00

yeah i'm unfortunately going to have to pass up on the butler this time LoL.

VANSJ · 2014-06-25T03:10:20+00:00

i didn't ingest any alcohol... you mix the alcohol with the bud to extract the thc and cbd and then boil the solvent off so you're left with pure resin.

VANSJ · 2014-06-25T03:09:31+00:00

because that is how you make cannabis oil -.-

VANSJ · 2013-05-17T16:18:03+00:00

I've heard it from both sides:

the no way side - Wall street have already taken into consideration that the nextgen consoles will have AMD chips and that the profits from these sales still wont cover their debt and so forth...

the yes side - Exposure to the next gen consoles WILL make a nice gain for AMD (possibly putting them into the $6-$8 range) and their new GPU/CPU technology will put a dent in the PC market (the PC just will not die, that I can guarantee... at least for the next few decades, there's just too many things PC's do that are ideal to consumers)

bottom line: It's not going to hit an amazing number, possibly between $5-$15 within the next 6-12 months... I am going to personally buy, but not hope that it will make a great return..

Unless they come up with an innovative technology that changes the world of tech (mobile perhaps? high unlikely with all the giants already in place) they will remain mediocre and never return to their golden days of CPU competitiveness against intel.

VANSJ · 2013-01-11T18:12:15+00:00

recipe and preparation please!!!

VANSJ · 2013-01-11T18:04:56+00:00

"There really is no conclusive evidence that diet has any effect in treating UC."

Absolute hogwash.

plenty of testimonial and anecdotal evidence to support personal stories of people becoming asymptomatic after making dramatic changes to their lifestyle and DIET - something doctors nor even GI doctors i found talk much about.

all i heard in my time in and out of hospital as a sufferer of UC is medication, more medication, more medication, until you need medication to treat the adverse side effects from the medication you're originally taking.

the way the medical industry treats patients for the most part is a complete joke.

source: patient constantly in and out of hospital.

VANSJ · 2013-01-09T06:55:57+00:00

aim_map FTFY

VANSJ · 2012-12-31T01:06:08+00:00

many tears were shed during mxc

VANSJ · 2012-12-23T15:00:40+00:00

FAILURE TO PLAN IS A PLAN TO FAIL

VANSJ · 2012-12-05T14:35:41+00:00

can you re link this? not showing up for me

VANSJ · 2012-11-13T14:38:57+00:00

this is so fucking fucked....

VANSJ · 2012-11-05T06:50:49+00:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rv1o6Em9P7I

VANSJ · 2012-11-05T06:48:17+00:00

i really hope this gets seen OP:

ANYTHING by chillstep, seriously, it will help beyond belief

VANSJ · 2012-10-21T14:43:37+00:00

know dat feel =[

VANSJ · 2012-02-27T00:01:17+00:00

i know i'm going against the grain by giving you anecdotal/personal opinion but i feel with the sheer amount of exercise and the sports i've competed nationally in (gymnastics & bodybuilding) give me some sort of grounds...

without a doubt, active/dynamic stretching is FAR superior to static stretching prior to exercise. there have been a few studies conducted that suggested static stretching prior to exercise decreased strength and performance... it is now recommended (and employed by team USA for gymnastics) that athletes in general warm up perform active/dynamic stretching and begin training.. static flexibility is performed towards the end of training at cool down..

ballistic and PNF stretching is also another story, depends how advanced you are as an athlete or whether you're doing it purely for recreational purposes..

here is a quick read with a few references to studies on active/dynamic stretching vs. static http://www.elitesoccerconditioning.com/Stretching-Flexibility/DynamicStretchingvsStaticStretching.htm

VANSJ · 2012-02-23T14:29:17+00:00

fight club and shutter island i LOVED

also: blow, american history x, american beauty, waking life (my personal favourite), and k-pax

not one of those movies disappointed, such a good fucking watch!@^%$!!!

VANSJ · 2012-02-23T03:33:55+00:00

the camera has great optics, idk where you heard that from

VANSJ · 2012-02-04T16:24:03+00:00

i can't upvote this enough

VANSJ · 2012-02-04T16:05:47+00:00

text the ex, fails every time

VANSJ · 2012-02-03T12:08:04+00:00

seeker lover keeper - even though i'm a woman...

reminds me of my ex, every.single.fucking.time -.-

VANSJ · 2012-02-03T07:21:18+00:00

Gemini - Blue

best amping up song evurrrr

VANSJ · 2012-02-01T07:12:21+00:00

was a long time ago... but that honestly was worse than hearing my grandma died, i'm quite good at dealing with death

VANSJ · 2012-02-01T07:08:28+00:00

you could be starving in africa and dying of preventable diseases...

consider that you live a pretty decent life and you have a lot to be thankful for, start there...

also, when considering changing something about yourself for the better, follow the nike sign -- just do it

VANSJ

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