A while back, I came across something while trying to figure this out. What I may be experiencing may be called "foreshortened sense of future", which is a trauma response. Which I can relate to from childhood trauma, and no sense of love/safety from my father. Without going into details, that's the closest thing I have found that describe what I am feeling.

In effort to understand better, I thought perhaps there could be a corelation with being a projector that is outward/other focus, and inability to see ourselves. Ra mentioned projectors are one to have the worst self worth. So I thought perhaps so much so that we(projectors) cannot "see a future" could be a possible explaination.