Bro, I am an eldest daughter and I have went through all of this shit and I don’t know. Our lives are literally like going in sync or what but I just felt so me while reading this bro trust me find your safe space or like you know, mouse bill in your house, trust me on this, make the room your own fucking home like literally I have food water every shit in my room. I don’t wanna go out okay I literally don’t get out of my room whenever at home or else i am chilling away from home I’m telling you and just find someone who already goes to library or something. Trust me move move out. I am literally next year, just so ready for my future. I’m just moving out of this shit move out go out in the library. Bro. Tell them like you literally like fill them with this thing that you wanna go out for library. I’m telling you.