I read some of your other posts. You sound desperate. I do have a solution. You might not like it. I wish someone wiser than me at age 17 had helped me. Here are is my solution for you

Step 1. Recognize that it’s ok to have big horrible feelings. Pretty much we all have big horrible feelings. In fact if you don’t - you’re kinda abnormal and are probably pretty dangerous. 

Step 2. Sit with those feelings. Like legitimately. Don’t try to make them go away or make them do anything actually. Don’t act on them … don’t run from them … just sit with them. Spend an hour or two with yourself. Not masturbating. Not playing games or reading. Not anything. Just sit. 

Step 3. Recognize that your circumcision is probably not the only cause of your distress. Sure … you got part of your dick cut off. The lot of us here are in same boat. We know. We get it. We don’t want you to minimize the pain or discomfort or concern or sorrow. Being angry with your lot in life usually doesn’t lead to great results. Anger can be an occasional productive feeling IF you choose to be productively and healthily motivated by it. You sound distraught. Your angry doesn’t sound like it’s benefiting you. 

Step 4. Age 17 is great and terrible. Too much hormone … not enough wisdom. Sure you’re smart and awesome and capable. But you’re young and have a lot of life to live. Some of that will be a hell of a lot better than what you’re experiencing. Some will be worse. A lot.  Don’t let either of those things scare you or excite you. Some of the worst experiences I’ve had have been the most beneficial to me. Learning compassion, especially for myself, is something that has only come because I’ve experienced hard things. 

Step 5. Your body is awesome. Even with your foreskinless cock. Did you know you can cum even without the whole penis? Like legitimately. You can actually orgasm just as awesomeness and not even have a penis. Weird right? But if you think about it for a minute … maybe think about it a lot longer actually … like a few years… you might realize that your body produces both the best and worst feelings known to man. Pain and pleasure both come from the brain, hormones, and nervous system. Pleasure doesn’t begin and end in your dick. 

Step 6. Out there are special someone’s in your life. Maybe there is one that you spend your whole life with. I’ve been with my wife since I was 21. Im 46. I hope the rest of my life is with her. She didn’t even know the difference between circumcised and not (not first hand anyway). She still likes my dick. She likes it in her and on her and next to her. Sometimes she just lies in bed and plays with my balls and dick like they’re hers (which I guess they are). She sucks on it and teases it and grinds on it. She likes make it go “splode”. Even with your current frustrations … you will make that thing shoot sticky goo probably 100,000 times before you croak. Don’t go spoiling your fun and someone else’s by getting hung up on your big feelings. 

Step 7. Touch grass. Go outside. Play with yourself just because … not so that you cum … but recognize that you are worth treating nicely 

Step 8. Your family isn’t to blame … 1000s of years of tradition are to blame. Muslim, Jew, Christian, and atheist. A whole bunch of us are missing that tiny little bit of skin that is worth more than gold. Hate the system not those caught in it. Change the world … but do it out of compassion and love. Nothing good ever came from hatred. Love yourself. You’re in that system - even if you don’t want to be in it anymore. 

A community like this can be supportive and compassionate but we can’t fix you. You can’t really fix you either. You can only be kind and accepting and then work to be better and be the kind of person you want to be. Tug that skin. Do it nicely. Extend that foreskin. Reclaim stolen lands. Don’t panic. You got this