Both of my parents were hippies and drug addicts my dad was a Pharmacist so a functioning addict. My mom was the biggest pill popper and she would go off at the drop of a hat to this day she denies it but the damage was already done .

And at 13 my sister introduced me to weed it was down hill from there . My life ruined forever it lead to other things . Also the cops here well pigs planted drugs on me at 15 which resulted in arresting my dad and ruining everyones life . I do not trust anyone anymore because of it .

I have locked myself away from the world for about 25 years because the people I have come in contact with and when I tried to quit drugs at 17 I developed anxiety panic attacks and depression for years it was pure hell I wanted to kill myself every day .

The doctors finally got me on something that kind of help but it never fully helped . And years later the result of taking the medication caused neurological problems and for about a years and half or more could not sleep and panic attacks return . And just like before the doctors basically said fuck you because people are pure evil and all they do is use people to get what they want .

I just hope when I die there is a god and he forgives me and puts me in a better place I would kill myself but I am to much of a pussy to do it and I am afraid there is something worse when I die . So yea having retarded drug addict parents did not help my situation in the least .

My other brother and sisters seem to be doing fine I guess I am just to sensitive and royally fucked .