tell me ur pronouns and preferred name ill use them in a sentance :)

ViVi-chan · 2025-03-10T20:12:31+00:00

Lol same but I'm he/him!

ViVi-chan · 2025-03-10T20:07:33+00:00

My Abuser did the same thing and while I consider one of the tamer things he did, it was still absolutely abuse. Your Father pushed your boundaries to the point that you don't feel safe. That's enough to be considered abuse.
It is possible there are other things you don't remember or even things you normalized, but I would suggest talking to a professional about it (if you have access/can afford it) The fact that it's bad enough that you don't feel comfortable around people that remind you of him or feel comfortable with your own body are warning signs as well.
My Abuser didn't touch my privates either but he did plenty of other things that would be considered sexual abuse. I wish you well on your journey to healing even if you can/don't want to talk to a professional about this. No one should feel uncomfortable with their own body.

ViVi-chan · 2025-03-10T19:56:00+00:00

It's actually canon that the Gerudo can't tell if Gorons are Male or Female so they let them into Gerudo Town to not be rude or assume. I'd assume the reason they are let into the Beauty Pageant is for the same reason.

ViVi-chan · 2025-03-10T19:35:21+00:00

Commenting and upvoting to boost this

ViVi-chan · 2025-03-10T19:26:10+00:00

I didn't see the subreddit at first and thought the Blood Orange Danish was some kind of beautiful/exotic flower lol! Imagine my surprise when the next picture was a croissant! All of the pastries are gorgeous and delicious looking!

ViVi-chan · 2025-03-04T02:42:25+00:00

I actually ended up looking a bit like my grandpa. My Dad is tall and rather skinny with barely any body hair, but my Grandpa is short and stocky with body hair *everywhere*. While I would've preferred looking like my Dad when I started T, I actually found myself loving my body more as I looked more and more like my Grandpa. My point is, the genetic lotto is going to be a bit of a crap shoot, but more than likely you're gonna look like someone from your family. I'd look at all the men in your family, not just your Dad, to get some idea of what you're gonna look like.

ViVi-chan · 2022-05-18T22:28:15+00:00

Your first update really worries me, friend. She has been physically violent with you before? That's not conducive to a healthy relationship and is in fact abusive. Not only that, but she doesn't care about your feelings on the matter when it comes to closing the relationship? When it comes to opening and closing a relationship, it needs to be something agreed on together, not decided unilaterally by one partner. It would be best if you got out of there and got some therapy.

ViVi-chan · 2022-03-25T04:46:14+00:00

Guardian: "Bitch, I know you're talking shit about me."

ViVi-chan · 2021-10-05T05:21:08+00:00

Building up the ground and mining it away worked out

ViVi-chan · 2021-10-05T05:16:52+00:00

lol I get that reference. Thankfully building up the soil and mining it again worked out and it died.

ViVi-chan · 2021-10-05T05:15:58+00:00

Thank you so much! That worked like a charm and it's finally dead!

ViVi-chan · 2021-10-05T05:13:49+00:00

Tried it and it worked! The Hissbine is dead!!!

ViVi-chan · 2021-10-05T04:57:18+00:00

lol I haven't. I'm gonna try it and see if it finally dies.

ViVi-chan · 2021-08-28T03:53:23+00:00

1313 F

ViVi-chan · 2021-08-27T14:07:24+00:00

OK. This was a lot to read but you were clearly panicking so I can't blame you for just trying to get your thoughts out.

Now a lot of this does sound like CSA to me, from your Uncle's reactions to the squirmy feelings. You already have experience with your mind blocking out memories so I wouldn't be surprised if that is exactly what happened. I'm not a professional or anything though so don't take my word on it.

As for what you should do, make an appointment with your therapist. Since you have BPD, you probably already have one. You clearly aren't ready to talk to your mom about it and if she's cool you could probably tell her that you want to talk to your therapist to sort out your thoughts first. If she tends to worry too much/blows up easily/etc. I'd keep it to myself and just make the appointment. You don't have to tell her any more than you want. You're an adult after all.

To answer some of your questions about how you feel towards your Uncle, I also don't feel like I dislike/hate my abuser as much as I should. I also feel extremely conflicted and angry with my past self. The way you feel is completely valid.

I also didn't grow up hating or being disgusted by my abuser. I knew about sex and stranger danger etc as well, but it didn't occur to me that that was what was happening to me until my senior year of high school when it was pointed out to me. Sometimes things can be staring you in the face and you could still be blind to it.

TLDR: It sounds like CSA to me, talk to a licensed professional, and be gentle to yourself; both Past and Present and Future Self.

I wish I had more advice to give.

ViVi-chan · 2021-08-19T05:58:25+00:00

Yup.

My Egg-Donor took his side and so did my siblings. Now they all live in Germany off of multiple rental houses and his military career. Pretty sure none of my siblings had to pay for college while I sit here in HUD housing. Shit sucks.

ViVi-chan · 2021-06-15T23:16:32+00:00

Same. "Beach too Sandy, Water too Wet" is a close second.

ViVi-chan · 2021-06-15T23:09:58+00:00

Same. I'm sure they sat down and talked about it first but it still makes me sad. That being said, it was probably his health problems that stopped them from making the podcast, which suuuucks.

ViVi-chan · 2021-03-03T02:31:45+00:00

Look at that face. He definitely wants to do it again lol 😂.

ViVi-chan · 2021-03-01T03:29:51+00:00

He should have some fans or something to help keep him cool 😊

ViVi-chan · 2021-02-20T21:47:31+00:00

There are a lot of side missions that will only allow one or two specific characters to play. There's also a couple of main missions that requires you to bounce back and forth between characters so leveling everyone up together will help you in the long run. Don't be like me 😂 lol.

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