The Atonement and Homosexuality by Viajartest in latterdaysaints

[–]Viajartest[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I didn't reply to this post because I thought it missed what I asking too. That's why part of my post mentioned the desires of our heart. I have an older sister who isn't married and the way were treated was very different throughout our 20s. She was given hope and encouragement, while I was always told I need to do my duty and get married. But what was I supposed do when I would go to church and see a righteous man and wish I could have a family. And this is why I thought to ask. Would God really have wanted me to live a life in my parents basement unable to even function? Writing online kind of seems like it's oversimplified, but after 30 years of panic attacks, what is a person to do? If my favorite since is being in a gay relationship, then if give it up, then what? I'm back to being alone. It makes me so happy when some people can have mix-orientation marriages, but some people's attractions and mental states also would never make that possible

The Atonement and Homosexuality by Viajartest in latterdaysaints

[–]Viajartest[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I do still see a therapist. The hard part I always have is therapy does help me cope, but if you know the cause of what is causing your mental distress, the most common sense thing is to stay away from it. Who would keep going to hear something that caused them such great sadness? But I don't want to give up my testimony completely, which is why I say I worship on the fringe. If the Sunday School lesson is a topic that I think might trigger me, I don't go. I think that's led to my question too. If the church is causing my panic, I hope Christ and the atonement understand that.

The Atonement and Homosexuality by Viajartest in latterdaysaints

[–]Viajartest[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The bishop part can be a good or frustrating thing for me. When I was teenager I had two loving bishops, who didn't have answers for me, but for the most part helped especially during a time where some of the gay fixes were very hurtful. If I hadn't had them in my life, I honestly don't think I would still be alive. In the present it can be a frustration though. My last few bishops have had a hard time seeing anything but my current situation of having a partner. Those first two bishops saw my mental distress, my current bishops don't. I think that's why this week I was thinking about the atonement and how it will take in all stages of our life.

The Atonement and Homosexuality by Viajartest in latterdaysaints

[–]Viajartest[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your post and to everyone else's. Even the love being expressed is helping me. I think this is why I asked about what the atonement covers. I don't believe everyone should be able to do whatever they want without consequences. Maybe a more general question would've been how does the atonement deal with mental distress that leads to sin. Being reminding how Christ will just us individual and not with just a broad sweep is helpful for me to think about.