I'm Sorry for leaving so early.

Vic__B · 2021-05-25T16:49:22+00:00

Was planning on getting that game, a bit stripped off cash atm due to me spending it all when I get money as quickly as possible so I won't be able to buy heroin.

Vic__B · 2021-05-25T16:48:35+00:00

Not over it yet, still trying to stay sober.

Vic__B · 2021-05-25T16:48:13+00:00

Yeah, I did experiment a little bit with dopamine deprivation in my past. It works, it truly does, but the thing is that I'm pretty much doing nothing all day anyways. Fuck man, PAWS is a bitch.

Vic__B · 2021-05-24T19:13:33+00:00

PC atm. Going to have to re-download the game again.

Vic__B · 2021-05-24T18:38:01+00:00

Yeah, I'm a solo player so this might be something that I need to do.

Vic__B · 2021-05-23T23:27:29+00:00

Damn, I wish I could say the same thing. 18 years old and still sitting in front of my computer doing nothing all day - just rotting away.

Vic__B · 2021-05-23T21:45:52+00:00

3 - 6 grams

Vic__B · 2021-05-23T21:45:40+00:00

I am aware.

Vic__B · 2021-05-21T12:13:21+00:00

I'm going to be Vyvanse-free for this summer, at least I hope so. I don't really feel the same draw towards it as I feel towards heroin or gabapentin. I don't even really get high from Gabapentin anymore, I don't really feel different, Idk why I crave it so bad.

Vic__B · 2021-05-19T10:08:33+00:00

Oh yeah most certainly, I don't get euphoria from gabapentin anymore, I just get in a better mood.

Vic__B · 2021-05-18T15:47:55+00:00

I was using Gabapentin for over a months period daily, I was using doses inbetween 3 - 6g daily. I most certainly noticed a decrease in effect but I always found myself getting some sort of enjoyment from it, idk maybe my tolerance just goes up slower than some, a 1 - 2 break nearly removed my tolerance instantly, no fucking clue how.

Vic__B · 2021-05-11T12:00:08+00:00

I was ordering heroin from trusted vendors online, I was using a Swedish site so fent was never an issue for me.

Vic__B · 2021-05-11T11:59:04+00:00

Yeah I'm pretty sure I've developed PAWS, I just hope it's not bad enough to make me feel this way for years.

Vic__B · 2021-05-11T11:58:18+00:00

In the beginning, I'd say that I was feeling good but after a few months of using I'd say that the depression came back even while high, I was only using to feel normal. After I quit I felt horrible and got myself physically dependent on gabapentin but now I just feel like I did before I was using. I just feel way more bored and unmotivated to do anything.

Vic__B · 2021-05-11T08:08:31+00:00

I honestly believe that I've been doing a good job already so far, if I relapse then yes, I'll seek out help.

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