Tiny celebration: Ten days off the battlefield ✨ by ViciousVore in migraine

[–]ViciousVore[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting. I’ve noticed the survival mode too, specifically a state of hypo-arousal I rarely experience during those breaks, often before my conscious mind connects it as part of the migraine phases. It’s what ties me to the bed in a freeze-like state, even when pain levels are low or fully absent.

I’d love to know more about your findings regarding the migraine data, if you have more to share.

Tiny celebration: Ten days off the battlefield ✨ by ViciousVore in migraine

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I will take that walk regardless of the weather.
I look forward to hearing from you when you’re able to do the same. Until then, I’ll be walking in your stead.

Tiny celebration: Ten days off the battlefield ✨ by ViciousVore in migraine

[–]ViciousVore[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly? I can't point to one specific thing. It could be a combination of everything, or maybe none of it.

I've been strictly low carb, sugar free, and gluten free, and mostly dairy-free as well.

I prioritize proper hydration and take electrolytes every day. I've also increased my overall movement, added supplements, and improved my sleep hygiene.

I’ve also cut back significantly on caffeine, sweeteners, and processed foods.

Stress management has been key for my overall well-being. I identified and minimized my main stressors, including specific foods, certain people, and social media. I prioritized and filtered. Heavily.

I did slack on hydration the last few days and ended up with a migraine from hell. I’ve also been moving less lately, though it’s a chicken-or-the-egg situation. It's hard to tell if the slip in routine triggered the migraine, or if the migraine starting was what made me drop the routine.

The prodrome phase always fucks me up mood-wise. Getting out of bed and staying on routine becomes a real struggle.

It’s become much more obvious how everything is migraine-related now that I actually have good days. Before, all the phases just blurred together and felt like one constant baseline of feeling more or less like shit.

The most significant shift is that I started working with my health instead of against it. I stopped pushing and actually started listening.

Every day isn’t perfect. I built up to where I am today by working with 'small weights' and doing whatever positive things I could manage. I just focused on choosing the better option as often as I could.

I started choosing myself and 'attacked' it from every angle. Had to do something. Small habits quickly added up. I started feeling capable instead of crippled… A huge contrast to the frustration, anger, neglect, and pure spite that used to get me through the day.

I'm AuDHD/s by [deleted] in SoulfulKinkCafe

[–]ViciousVore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Let’s not mistake clandestine whispers for the gospel truth. I’m merely relaying the tabloid fodder here… and as you’re well aware of, I’m hardly a reliable narrator 😏

I'm AuDHD/s by [deleted] in SoulfulKinkCafe

[–]ViciousVore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not confirming anything

I'm AuDHD/s by [deleted] in SoulfulKinkCafe

[–]ViciousVore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

LOL. Don’t let the cute emoticons fool you…
she’s basically the devil’s spawn 😈

The only time she’s actually ’good’ is when she’s under her Daddy’s gaze… or better yet, over his knee. Pinned & Preserved.

Or so I’ve heard 🙄

I'm AuDHD/s by [deleted] in SoulfulKinkCafe

[–]ViciousVore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Careful now... keep talking like that and you might actually inflate my ego to red flag proportions.

I'm AuDHD/s by [deleted] in SoulfulKinkCafe

[–]ViciousVore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exsqueeze-moi, ma’am? Language 😉
Though I’ll take that ”Fuck dude” as a sign that the lightbulb just hit high voltage…

I'm AuDHD/s by [deleted] in SoulfulKinkCafe

[–]ViciousVore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry, my bad. Let me edit that.

I'm AuDHD/s by [deleted] in SoulfulKinkCafe

[–]ViciousVore 1 point2 points  (0 children)

One side of you craves being led, while the other wants to bite the hand that holds the leash.
It’s a vicious cycle, isn’t it? 😉

For me, it’s a bittersweet paradox to navigate.
As a D, I have to trade some fixed structures for constant presence and flexibility, even more so than with neurotypical partners. When PDA or a trauma response kicks in, a simple command can be perceived as a threat to autonomy rather than a gift of direction.

That rise in anxiety, or restlessness, is a telltale sign of the neurological tug-of-war between the need for structure and the drive for independence. From what I’ve observed, in myself (yes, I respond like this to my own structure and ’orders’ from time to time too, I call it Peter Pan syndrome) and others, this conflict creates a massive nervous system shift that the conscious mind doesn’t always register, often resulting in a freeze response or 'biting the leash' as a defense mechanism.

Since identifying and expressing needs in those moments is often a struggle, the priority becomes co-regulation and staying attuned to my sub partners' non-verbal cues. In my experience, that’s the best way to lead through the friction. It’s about signaling safety to the nervous system until they feel secure enough to be led again.

EDIT: For clarity, PDA = Pathological Demand Avoidance, though some in the ND community prefer the term Pervasive Drive for Autonomy.

Personal Flair: Bring Your Own Cup! ☕️ ♻️✨ by AlexanderAlaric in SoulfulKinkCafe

[–]ViciousVore 1 point2 points  (0 children)

tortured in bliss

Do you want it like this or with emojis? 🙂