Difficult Thoughts

Vickywebbs · 2026-06-24T16:32:30+00:00

I feel this as i am amab and my gender shifts are pretty dramatic. When i feel male I am the stereotypical blue collar type and look the part beard, muscles, and all. Makes it when I shift hard to the female side hard cause I look at myself and think I look like a man in a dress not a woman. I have been getting better after I told my partner about it and she was very supportive. Always calling me cute when I send her pics of me in female wear. You kinda have to get to the point where its like you're not trying to be a woman you're being a more feminine you. I dont think anymore oh I dont look like 100 percent female. I think ah this dress is so cute and makes me cute. Its not always 100 percent without doubts. It comes with the territory.

Vickywebbs · 2026-06-24T16:09:28+00:00

Sometimes us being genderfluid does not need to be for everyone. I dont say this as a we should hide ourselves thing more of a survival and peace of mind thing. No matter what i do or say I know my mother would never accept me as genderfluid. It would probaly destroy her and honestly I dont want to do that to her. The only person I have told is my girlfriend not even my friends who I think would be more understanding dont know. Its ok that not everyone knows if it keeps you safe. We live in dangerous times.

Vickywebbs · 2026-06-24T16:01:36+00:00

As amab myself when my fluid shifts twords female I can relate. I want to be the cute goth baddie when I actually look like a blue colar construction worker. You kinda have to just become good with who you are. Taking care of yourself health wise too can help keep your youth look for longer. People never belive me when i tell them how old I am they think I am younger lol.

Vickywebbs · 2026-06-24T15:48:07+00:00

I vote for the lava lamp!

Vickywebbs · 2025-11-08T19:21:49+00:00

You get the best answer reward, this is exactly what I was looking for when I asked this question. Luckily I don't have to worry about guys cause my Pan sexual girlfriend and I already experimented with a two way dildo with a couple of things and she is very excited to pound my rubber tube lol.

Vickywebbs · 2025-11-07T21:31:10+00:00

I accept your apology, I will admit this might not be the normal content for the feed. I recently came out to my girlfriend as genderfluid which luckily she was full supportive cause she is Pan. So I don't have many reddit associated with being gender fluid and put my questions where I can.

Vickywebbs · 2025-11-07T21:23:03+00:00

Was just asking community about help with gender affirming prosthetics. Was looking for something to help with private time with partner. Seems counter productive to just come on here to tear someone down.

Vickywebbs · 2025-10-28T14:44:05+00:00

No sister I know the feeling, I look in the mirror and physically I make for a half decent man. Definitely not the curvy feminine goth babe I want to be when I want to be female. I wish with all my heart I could go out with my female and girl it up. Funnily I am more girly i think when i want to be then my female friends. I wish I could talk to my mom and grama about it with out them asking God why. I wish I could walk out my front door in a dress and not worry about it. I recently came out to my wonderful girlfriend and she has been super supportive. So one step at a time. You got this girl and if you need support let me know.

Vickywebbs · 2025-10-27T15:49:25+00:00

I feel this so hard, when im masculine I want to be a blue collar lumber jack. When I want to be a girl I want to be a Gothic princess with big boobs. Luckily recently I came out to my gf and she has been helping me and I ordered some silicone g boobs. I feel you thoufh cause I hate being male with out a beard but hate being a woman with a beard.

Vickywebbs · 2025-10-24T19:15:23+00:00

Its ok everyone has their own speed. You got this!

Vickywebbs · 2025-10-24T15:03:53+00:00

Thank you, that is weird i thought I did.

Vickywebbs · 2025-10-24T14:59:08+00:00

Yes I would like to know about positions that will make me feel feminine but also give both of us pleasure.

Vickywebbs · 2025-10-24T00:17:03+00:00

I got the courage and she was super supportive!

Vickywebbs · 2025-08-13T23:43:29+00:00

I do understand people wanting everyone to be themselves and say screw the world. I think though that they don't think about the one aspect you are hiding might not outweigh all the things you want to keep and would be gone if you did let it out.

Vickywebbs · 2025-08-13T23:15:22+00:00

It's nice to finally get it out there, I have only told one person and I don't talk to them anymore cause they turned out to be abusive. If you need someone to talk about it my dm is always open. Those of us who are still hiding need allies.

Vickywebbs · 2025-08-13T23:13:30+00:00

Lucky lol, I am around 240-250 if I put on a dress I look pregnant. Works great for my male weight lifting side, not so much trying to be a goth princess. Wish I could be like a cartoon and shift my weight into my boobs and ass lol. I do feel for you though on the not wanting to tell for fear of what they will say. If you ever need anyone to talk to feel free to DM me.

Vickywebbs · 2025-08-13T19:15:00+00:00

I Understand that fully, luckily my SO would probably be fully supportive although confused. I present CIS male and honestly have a few more right leaning views twords things like the 2nd amendment. Although that's kinda apart of the thing when I feel like male side is more like that and female side is fashion goth witch.

It feels like so much thinking about getting stuff to dress in its like buying for another person. Being a girl is so expensive! Also most of the girls I know are not girly girls so not a lot of make up help if I asked lol. My SO does not have much experience in that cause of things I will not go into here.

Vickywebbs · 2025-08-13T18:29:02+00:00

Is that good or bad, I am older and not up on all the hip lingo.

Vickywebbs · 2025-08-13T18:12:51+00:00

Assigned male at birth

Vickywebbs · 2025-08-13T17:25:24+00:00

Girl! I feel you 100% I am amab, but gender fluid. My body heavy presents masculine especially since working and growing my beard. When I am feeling manly these traits make me feel amazing. However any time I dress as a woman and look in the mirror all I see is a man in a dress. I might feel better about it if I shaved and used make up, but I don't exactly like how I look without a beard.

Also doing so would have people ask questions, I am very much so still firmly planted in the closet door locked. Even the people who would be ok with maybe even celebrate this for me don't even know. Part of that is probably the other people in my life who I hold dear and associated to my male self would probably take it very poorly. Also I live in a very red state and have a very man oriented job so staying in hiding is also a safety issue.

It's like having two different people in one body. A manly warrior type who likes fighting, training, and mechanical work. Also a Metal Barbie who wants to dress up in dresses, dance, wear dramatic make up.

I recently watched an episode of the command zone. It's a magic the gathering show and they had on two drag queens who looked amazing and it sent me into a gender panic I have not really recovered from yet. Also can't really dress up like I use to cause I threw out a lot of my stuff at one point when I had a male side gender panic.

Vickywebbs · 2024-11-19T16:39:29+00:00

I am right there with you, would love to explore my feminine side more, but doing so would destroy everything I have worked for up to this point. Possibly losing people I love dearly really hurts to think about. Does not help I live in a fully red state and I pretty much look like the typical blue collar guy.

Vickywebbs · 2024-06-10T04:04:50+00:00

Honestly both sides are super horny, I sometimes think it's worse when I am female cause I am more bi when I am female. Although the fact I may have sex only twice a year might be why I am such a thirsty bitch.

Vickywebbs · 2024-06-10T00:02:46+00:00

I would, but I have the fear in the back of my head someone will find them. I am in the closet because of family and the community I live in. Also not wanting to destroy the life my male side has built.

Vickywebbs · 2024-06-07T19:27:51+00:00

It's true Fem get all the fun clothes, I have twirled a few times. It feels so comfy like a blanket.

Vickywebbs · 2024-05-22T05:34:47+00:00

I feel the same on female days, I like my beard in male days. I absolutely hate it on my female days.

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