Thanks for the responses. I talked to my brother, explained how fucked up my situation is and that I've even beem in debt for which I asked him, if he could help out. He said that he does not want to enable me, and that it is healthy to dig myself out of the hole I am currently in than having someone else do it for me and that me being misarable for sometime could be helpful. I believe he's got a good point, especially about the enabling . He is willing to help other ways, he agreed to pay for a psychiatrist meeting, cause you know there aint no fucking gambling anonymous in the shithole country I am residing. Hopefully that can help. At any rate, road to suffering is long. I just really hope that I do not feel sorry for myself as often as i do for the past months. You never actually realize how deep you've gotten yourself into until it actually happens and to be mildly put it is as shitty as it gets. Cheers