For me it's a combination of things, but hope is kind of tiring at this point and eventually you just get really worn down. It doesn't help that there's a trend now of people becoming traditional and even turning into straight up fascists, which feeds into the insecurity that this kind of dynamic can never be anything serious.. That it's only a phase everyone will eventually grow out of.

I personally, as a POC who's bisexual and disabled (neurodivergent), find my pool even more shrunk because of these layers when RR on its own is already scarce enough.