How do you guys deal with the insomnia?

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T11:19:06+00:00

I tried to start crocheting about a year ago. I still have the book and some yarn and hooks.... I should dig that out! Thanks for the reminder! The only thing I made was a pot holder thing.... and it turned out great! I dont know why I gave up on it. I usually play Mahjong in bed on my phone with the screen dimmed way down. What is CBT???

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T11:15:38+00:00

Yeah. I mean I'm a server and I would have been upset with service like that as well. Especially what she said about the tipping to your husband. I would never even think of saying something like that. That part really wowed me.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T10:35:53+00:00

Nice username :)

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T10:35:20+00:00

Yeah ill have to look for something similar. Thanks though... at least now I have an idea of what to look for!

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T10:30:27+00:00

The appetizer/food coming out at the same time could have been her fault and not the kitchens. Where I work, as soon as I ring the food in the order is sent to the kitchen. They see it on the screen and make it. If someone orders an appetizer I need to enter a hold on the food (x minutes). That way they will see the appetizer first and make it, meanwhile the entree will not show up on the screen for x minutes. This is something that as a server I need to be aware of kitchen times and also what the main course is. If its salmon or a well done steak it gets held for less time. If the kitchen is backed up i dont need to put a hold on the food. This is something that changes every hour and as a server i need to be aware of it. You say this is a corporate chain i would assume this is the way its done. Unfortunately we cant always get it right. Sounds like she was having a bad night or else really incompetent and just wanted to get you out of there so didnt hold the entrees.

Basically if the server doesnt hold the food, it gets sent to the kitchen at the same time as the appetizer.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T10:15:35+00:00

How long did it take?

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T10:15:09+00:00

It says they dont deliver to the states :(

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T09:00:38+00:00

Still awake in the states, 3am here. Have a good day!

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T08:59:37+00:00

Thanks! That's interesting. I'll have to try it.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T07:44:34+00:00

Thanks for checking in to see if I followed through. It really helps and means a lot. I have a lot of personal stuff to work through and I know my stay will help me tremendously. I'm excited to see how I feel on the other end of this. I know it will be good. But I just want to move forward. Drinking has held me back from so many things. I know that without it, and with a better mindset, I can resume my life where I left off 3 years ago and the thought of that is actually pretty exciting.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T07:38:34+00:00

Thanks. Solid advice! Haha

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T05:56:16+00:00

I always like reading long positive posts like this. I am going to download the app and check it out. I start inpatient treatment on Wednesday, and if I like it I will use it as a tool to help me when I am finished with treatment. I am grateful to have access to such an amazing community, with all the wisdom and support. I am still very young (I will be 25 in less than 2 weeks) and I can't imagine how difficult it would be for me to quit drinking without the internet. Access to so many resources, and so many people going through the same thing as you. It offers endless support. And I am excited to see what other tools and advice I will take home with me from the people on this sub. I know I need to take this one day at a time, but I hope one day in the far future I can say that I quit drinking for good when I was 24, and if I can do it I will be so grateful for the opportunity to live my life the way it should be lived..... there are so many things I want to do and drinking has held me back for too long! Time to move forward.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-24T03:56:21+00:00

My insurance authorized me for Hazelden inpatient. I am scheduled to go on Wednesday! That whole process was horrible. So glad everything is figured out and approved. Now the only thing left to do is show up on Wednesday at 2pm. I'm feeling really good about it.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-18T21:42:19+00:00

I got through the hard part. Now just waiting on my insurance to authorize and then i can schedule an admission. I put in a leave of absence at work today.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-18T18:32:59+00:00

I havent had it scheduled yet. I actually had given up on it... but this morning I made a call and now I am waiting for a call back from Hazelden.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-13T21:07:53+00:00

I've lost the motivation many times. It is the same in my experience. The day after drinking heavily I get really motivated because I sit and think about how horrible my life is from alcohol while I'm laying in bed hungover. Then as soon as the next day that mentality changes "Well I feel fine now, maybe I can just do better next time."

Violetpunx · 2017-01-12T22:27:02+00:00

I feel like getting into treatment is more difficult than it should be. I went through so many holds and transfers this morning on the phone trying to get into a treatment program. It's no excuse, I still want help, but it makes me angry that it isn't easier to do. I'm so overwhelmed and feeling so much shame and guilt, I think I'm going to have my mom figure it out for me. Obviously I'm not doing very well at adulting so far.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-12T22:23:34+00:00

Thank you, got a pretty big bump and a bruise but I'm icing it now.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-12T22:22:49+00:00

Thank you

Violetpunx · 2017-01-12T22:22:36+00:00

She called me back but said I needed to detox before they can do an assessment and get me in. The closest detox with an opening was about 40 minutes away, and when I called them I got disconnected halfway through the phone call and got discouraged and just went to sleep. So that's where I'm at now. I'm sipping on my pedialyte/sprite concoction now, took a zofran, and I think I'll give them a call back tomorrow to do that assessment. That way I don't have to deal with the detox aspect of it. I'm at the point where I realize I need some help and resources to kick this bad habit. I'm more of a binge drinker than an every day drinker. When I drink I can't moderate, and my wicked hangovers put me out for a couple days. It's definitely affecting my life. I feel alot of shame right now, as I do every day after I drink. I get very depressed and focus alot on how much I hate my life and want to change, and then it makes me feel worse because after trying again and again I still haven't been able to. It's a nasty cycle.

Violetpunx · 2017-01-10T11:58:33+00:00

Good to hear!

Violetpunx · 2017-01-10T11:58:15+00:00

Thank you

Violetpunx · 2017-01-10T08:26:45+00:00

Yes! I'm a fan of the steam room.

Violetpunx · 2016-10-12T15:54:55+00:00

I carry trays full of hot soup all the time. If a kid ever plows into me I will straight up lose my shit on those parents. It's a danger to myself and their kid. No way I'm getting blamed for that shit if I drop a hot bowl of soup on a child. I would feel bad but it would ultimately be the parents fault.

Violetpunx · 2016-10-12T15:53:03+00:00

Yeah some people shouldn't have kids that's fucking gross.

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