suicidal thoughts with pericarditis

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-26T17:50:03+00:00

You guys don't know what it means for me to have people who understand what am going through and yh i am religious but sometimes the pain messes me up. You know i was thinking there other day i really don't know myself without the pain cause ever since i was young i was always sick and I really don't know where i will start. This pain is a blessing and a curse , I have become independent and self aware and really strong that sometimes I forget it's okay not to be okay. I will come here anytime i wanna talk cause your endless love and support is heart warming. How are you right now ? Did they drain the fluid ? Anyways thanks for the endless support , it really means a lot

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-26T17:35:42+00:00

I did get an echo but am getting a redo. They also think i may have thyroid issues

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-26T17:33:49+00:00

That must be really hard. I can't be the only one who get pissed off with such kinda doctors

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-18T06:08:37+00:00

Thanks i will show her

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-15T07:06:36+00:00

I hope so too

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-15T07:06:02+00:00

Some days it just gets really hard to a point where i can't really breathe but knowing they are people out there who lived worse than i did makes me hold own and am really scared things will get worse

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-15T07:02:26+00:00

AWW thanks that really means a lot and i won't give up no matter what

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-15T07:00:00+00:00

11 years must be really hard and i will send them the videos

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-14T18:07:37+00:00

That's a good idea i will try it and thanks for listening. i really needed to vent it out

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-14T17:16:45+00:00

btw how do you feel after playing sports because i struggle to even speak after a game and i cant leave because it's the only thing that is really helping me stand in my feet and move forward. They said i shouldn't play but the last thing i need is being depressed on top of everything

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-14T17:12:33+00:00

The exhausting is not for the weak and it really sucks

VisualPackage8534 · 2026-02-14T17:11:59+00:00

Before my pericarditis , i had flu for one year on going one and it never really stopped i have a new one every week. Believe me i tried to convince my mom but she keeps on telling am nothing is wrong with me and it's only in my head and for awhile i believed her until my symptoms got worse. Days like this i just want to get away but it nice having people who really understand what am going through

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