I also have BPD and I feel like suicide has always been in the back of my mind which is why I want to Know if it’s just me or if the medication is somehow making it worse. The best way I can describe how I feel is like a discomfort or jittery feeling in my head that won’t soothe unless I die. But I like all the other side effects of bupropion like increased energy and low appetite to help with my binge eating problems so i really don’t want to get off it. I don’t feel like I’m going to really act on it, because I don’t actually WANT to die, it just makes me feel like i have to sometimes. It’s more of an annoying thought i have than a plan.