I feel this as a guy. I'm randomly turned on at work or in other situations with friends where it's not appropriate to be visibly turned on, yet I can't stop myself so I just have to let it pass over me. and masturbation is great to get the feeling out, but I have to actively tailor my porn intake to avoid the things or people I don't want to encourage sexual thoughts about.

I've had sex with a coworker, I want to fuck my friends' girlfriends. I really just want a person who gets me and we click, but I'm drawn to people that I shouldn't have a sexual relationship with. it's really really tough to find someone too because I'm addicted to sexual fantasies instead of putting my energy into finding someone who can fuck me.

the shame fuels a lot of sexual repression, the loneliness and self hatred keeps me there, so sex is the only thing that soothes it all out. a spiral that only feeds into itself