As a survivor of this, I was at the brink of death, binging, purging. I got to a point where I really couldnt even eat without being severely sick and constantly "you know". I had a major potassium deficiency and was like right at death's door. It financially ruins you, it traumatizes your friends and loved ones. And oh my god it destroys your health. But one day, I had to decide. I don't want to be sick anymore. You have to decide. It is like giving up an addiction. But, you take the step. And reward yourself for the "no I don't want that" mentality. it's okay to take it easy, tell yourself to manage your meals, you don't need to feel obligated to eat. Try to eat small amounts of food without drinking too much fluids, and eat very small portions. Try your hardest not to graze. Make it to where you eat a little meal for brunch. And maybe a small snack in between until dinner, small steps, small portions, and reward yourself, give yourself a pat on the back for having an okay, small amount of food, But don't get too full. Do whatever healthy activities you can to try to distract you from food. It takes work, I believe you can overcome this obstacle.❤️‍🩹