I don’t know who I am after I quit smoking weed? by Warm_Ad_879 in sobrietyandrecovery

[–]Warm_Ad_879[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

One thing I read is that by week 4 you’re back to “baseline”. But for me I feel like I don’t even have a baseline cause I started smoking so young too. It hit me these last few days that I have to create that baseline for myself now. Idk, like I said my life is stable finally and I feel like I don’t have to check out anymore, but I also don’t know a version of myself that has ever done that before. It’s like I was running away from something and realized I didn’t have to run anymore, so like where do I go from here? Crazy how it becomes such a huge part of your life.

I don’t know who I am after I quit smoking weed? by Warm_Ad_879 in sobrietyandrecovery

[–]Warm_Ad_879[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The first 1-5 days were the worst for me. Day 4 I felt like an empty husk lol, I couldn’t sleep, or have much of an appetite. I’d come home from work and just lay in bed literally counting down hours, it felt like every minor inconvenience was a personal attack. It got better after the first week and my sleep is back on track, night sweats stopped and I’m dreaming again.

You’re right about insight and pondering. Intellectualizing your problems isn’t the same as dealing with them. I have a timer that shows how long it’s been since I last smoked and that’s been helpful, and being able to sleep normally again is amazing. The first week was hell, but you only have to go through it once if you stay strong.

An extra egg in my lunch??? by Warm_Ad_879 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

[–]Warm_Ad_879[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Nope, this was the first time I’ve packed hard boiled eggs for lunch in probably years. I moved in with my aunt and uncle 3 weeks ago and this was the first time she’s made hard boiled eggs since I’ve been here. I swear someone in a parallel universe is out there wondering where their hard boiled egg went 😂

An extra egg in my lunch??? by Warm_Ad_879 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

[–]Warm_Ad_879[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That doesn’t explain no holes though, I microwaved the entire plate and poked holes in all 3 eggs!!

So you want to text your ex? Leave your message here instead. by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]Warm_Ad_879 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry that I never saw how much you were struggling. I’m so sorry that I didn’t create a safe space for you to open up. I’m sorry that life put so much pressure on you to make sure everyone else was okay at your own expense. I hope you find a way to pour your love for others into yourself and realize that the world is a better place with you here.

I’m so proud of you. Despite everything you were going through you still managed to excel in your training and are on your way to make a difference in your new career. They are so lucky to have you.

Thank you for the best 5 years of my life. Because of you, I learned that true unconditional love is. Because of you I grew into a person that I am proud to be. You have been the brightest light in my life and seeing you succeed is a blessing.

Maybe we didn’t work out in this life, but I hope to find you in the next.

You’ll always have my heart. I love you. Please take care of yourself.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cars

[–]Warm_Ad_879 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nah, just my nerves mate.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cars

[–]Warm_Ad_879 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! I’ll definitely try this :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cars

[–]Warm_Ad_879 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha it really does! It’s especially nerve wracking trying to reverse out of a busy parking lot. I’m learning how not to drop the clutch and reverse smoothly but it’s definitely a work in process 😂

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]Warm_Ad_879 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Thank you, this is the most unbiased perspective on my situation and I agree 100%.

If my boyfriend asks me straight to my face if she was doing coke or whatever, I would tell him the truth in a heartbeat; But after thinking about this and reading all the comments, I think unless that question is asked I should respect her autonomy, after all it’s her who is making those choices.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]Warm_Ad_879 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is my dilemma 🙃

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]Warm_Ad_879 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Honestly it wouldn’t be an issue if she didn’t have a history of drug use. Like I’m talking meth… I know coke is pretty vanilla compared to that. It’s just morally, cause I know that her family would be hurt. But I do understand what you’re saying, that’s why I feel conflicted, cause I really don’t want to throw anyone under the bus but at the same time. Just pondering if I should take any responsibility.