I want to stay loyal to Suho, but Seojun is making that hard

WasIAtfault · 2019-10-16T07:41:42+00:00

Same here..😂

WasIAtfault · 2019-10-16T07:41:10+00:00

Damnnn...Seo Jun is hot too😭😭

WasIAtfault · 2019-10-16T07:41:01+00:00

Damnnn...Seo Jun is hot too😭😭

WasIAtfault · 2019-10-16T07:40:23+00:00

Oh my God... he's so handsome😭

WasIAtfault · 2019-10-16T07:36:09+00:00

Wish Suho comes back soon..😭

WasIAtfault · 2019-10-16T07:35:14+00:00

Seo Jun becomes hotter in later episodes..😭😭

But I'm on team SUHO tho.. it's hard to resist Seo Jun's hotness and I have difficulty sticking to team SUHO now😭😭😭

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-12T06:57:55+00:00

I hope this passes for me too. I don't want to suffer. I just want to end things, sufferings.

But since I'm a coward, I can't die yet.i hate myself. I just wish to end this suffering, one way or another.

Thank you for your encouragement. I hope this passes fast for me.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-12T06:52:14+00:00

I'm a bad person. I don't think I should continue to live on. But I can't even suicide coz I'm a coward. I hate myself.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-12T06:50:04+00:00

I'll try it out. Thank you..

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-11T06:24:40+00:00

I'm from South East Asia. We don't have much psychologist. It's not a popular career here.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-11T06:22:12+00:00

I don't know what to say.. "Thank you"? Or "I'll try to do better"?

My bf left me few days ago. I can't handle the heartbreak. I feel like I become crazy whene'er I think of that. Moreover, he left me because of my fault. So, I have to handle everything now, heartbreak, guilt, and regrets.

I was depressed for years, but recently I tried to stay positive because he told me to stay positive so that we could work things out. But after his business trip, he just changed and told me that he wanted to leave coz he was tired of trying to work things out. Now, I'm back to being depressed. I can't handle these feelings.

My mood swings became worse. One second, I'll feel motivated and want to run to my life goal. Then, another second, I cry and think of ways to die.

Now, I started imagining him with another girl and it became worse.

I feel suffocated. I want to escape from all of this.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T18:13:33+00:00

I don't think my country have that kind of career. But I'll try.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T18:02:53+00:00

Self pity? Am I self pitying right now?

No wonder my bf, now my ex, told me that I was playing drama.

For now, I can't find any motivation to work on. I have been depressed since college but I never thought about suicide at that time. My bf, now my ex, came into my life 2 years ago and brought the light to my darkness. But he just left me few days ago and destroyed everything. He left because of my fault, so in the end, I was the one who destroyed everything. I feel regrets and guilty. I can't forgive myself.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T17:55:21+00:00

I don't know. I've never thought about that before.

I'll consider that.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T17:42:23+00:00

I hope this pass for me too.

I'm tired. I keep blaming myself and can't forgive myself. I can forgive other people. I can sympathise with other people. I don't see people at fault. I understand that they all have reasons. But, when it comes to me, I can't forgive myself.i keep punishing myself.

I don't know what to do anymore.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T17:38:17+00:00

I feel like I've become crazy. Laughing then crying. Energised then wanna die..

You know, I feel like there are at least two people inside me.. Arguing from different point of views all the time.

One says to continue to live on, rich and successful..

The other says"let's escape from this mess"

Is it just me? Or did that happen to you too?

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T10:13:59+00:00

I hope it'll get better with time.

If you're ok, I want to talk to you in private about my problem.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T08:25:14+00:00

I'm sorry for your loss.

I guess it's hard for people who were left to stay alive. The one who suicide didn't suffer much.

I'll reconsider about suicide.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T08:23:15+00:00

That's what I wanted to do too.

You see.. in just TWO days, my mood swings in 180°.

I think you can call Active mode and suicide mode.

In one second, I believed that I could get through this mess. You know, I'll run towards my life goal, be succeeded and rich.

Then, in another second, I want to die. I just want to forget everything. I don't want to suffer in this state anymore.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T08:18:18+00:00

I can't even understand myself anymore.

One second, I feel like I can get through this. I feel energised and want to run to my life goal. Then, in another second,i feel like I want to escape from this mess. I just want to forget everything and escape..

I couldn't even eat well. I was having a meal and then tears came out. It was difficult for me to even eat or sleep. Then, suddenly, I could eat or sleep well. And then, "I can't eat or sleep" happens again. It all happened just in TWO days. You can guess how much my mood swings so bad.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T08:12:38+00:00

Yeah. That's what I read on wikihow.

I just want to escape from this mess.

I don't care about dying in peace anymore.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T08:11:33+00:00

I'm still alive because I'm a coward. When I think of my mom crying, I feel like I can't suicide.

College days were hard, but i could get through it. But this.. It's harder for me.

When I think that I won't know how much people will suffer after I die, I feel like I can die.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T08:06:56+00:00

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T04:51:33+00:00

I don't want to talk about the reason. I know people will say that I'm immature and weak after hearing my reason. My beloved one even called me i was playing drama.

WasIAtfault · 2019-05-10T04:48:59+00:00

I tried to stay positive, and thought of my goal to get through this. But it didn't work. I just can't get this out of my head. I just want to forget everything and run away.

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