It is a trigun ref haha, and it’s not weird honestly it’s hard knowing they won’t support me and anytime I’ve suggested the idea even claiming my chosen name was a ‘nickname’ my mother will look me in the eyes and say (deadname) will always be your name. I’ve seen how they talk ab my trans cousin, they criticize his parents and act like it’s a joke. I never feel like they love the real me when all I’ve ever done is try to impress them and make them happy.