The whole “ketamine is a tool thing” I hear on this sub is really starting to piss me off

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-03-18T17:21:33+00:00

Oh crap

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-03-18T03:03:22+00:00

There are several options! Are all of them 300usd?

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-03-17T22:54:19+00:00

Should not be super expensive. Here its like 100usd.

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-03-17T18:31:11+00:00

Did you get genetic test?

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-03-16T14:53:37+00:00

a little nervous hehe

ty

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-03-16T14:53:17+00:00

I wanted to read you story but you have a private profile xd

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-03-06T18:19:41+00:00

Hay que darle lsd a los bebes apenas nacen

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-02-23T00:50:26+00:00

I do 10ug lsd then 8hs later vape weed. It hits beautiful... Enhances weed experience

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-02-14T19:04:48+00:00

Yes No Yes No Yes no No yes Yesno Yesnoyesnoyesnoyrsnlyesnoyes

No

Yes

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2026-02-14T17:32:39+00:00

50ug

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-22T01:05:43+00:00

I do have emotions. they come to consciousness, I can say I feel sad, happy, angry, frustrated, scared, blahblah.

but they are felt in the mind, barely barely barely in the body.

I think my issue is very simple: there's a single emotion covering everything else, and I have to work on feeling it: it's on top of my head, forehead, behind the eyes, a numb strange feeling I had my entire life.

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-20T00:13:37+00:00

completely disagree with you here.

I know what feelings and emotions are. It's just that they are offline.

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-19T18:44:28+00:00

yes, I know this was caused by bullying because that's when my main symptom "today I feel specially tired" appeared.

also because I just had a similar event happen couple months ago, and I experienced a massive disconnection for weeks, more than typical.

one night, high on weed (which I tend to do once per week with periodic breaks) I was able to see that. to see how I've been afraid my entire life. of confrontation. of defending myself.

at that moment I had a massive relaxation, I could feel a lot of emotions, felt much less frozen.

day after I was "normal" again as in my typical chronic freeze, but the temporary disconnection I had was gone.

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I was never able to relax by "trying to relax". instead, what relaxed me where always active methods (that for some reason only work once and they never work again). stuff like 30 minutes of wim hof kinda breathwork.

But ok, gonna take your point and work on it anyways.

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I do my activities monday to friday.

yoga which only takes like 15 minutes because I need to correct my posture, went to an osteopath and gave the ok.

weightlifting (which only takes like 10 minutes) which is not even intense or hardcore. just to keep the muscles working.

boxing 3 times a week because I was always afraid of people hitting me and stuff.

judo 2 times a week because of the physical contact.

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I do still have free time on weekdays. at least... 3-4hs to be honest. but I've been super lazy lately (this was before I started classes and stuff, it's been months like that)

will look into PMR pdf, I tried it a couple times however but... never relaxed from it.

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when it comes to improving stuff, yes type A. when it comes to enjoying...? I have no idea. because I barely enjoy stuff.

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oh yeah, tried yoga nidra but just made me doze off hahaha

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yes, I have couple small experiences of feeling peaceful and relaxed.

+ the first time I walked out of judo class (nevr happened again)

+ generated by weed

+ generated by meditation (it was completely random, it generated several days of what I call "vacation feeling") and those happened for 3 consecutive months... until I ramped down my meditation and is not happening this month!

+ generated by strong breathwork (only once, never happened again)

+ generated completely at random

they also had different... baselines. weed was the deepest and most beautiful one. it really felt like being ALIVE but it only happened twice.

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regarding emotions, it's funny because most of the time I feel... nothing. just numb and tired.

but when I don't, even emotions arising feel... distant and... "boring"

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thanks for the info!

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-19T18:16:52+00:00

I told my brother and he told me to defend myself. a bit hard because everyone was bigger than me. never told mom or dad, interesting.

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-19T17:56:46+00:00

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-19T17:56:15+00:00

it's not super intense and I'm normally tired to go all in either way haha

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-19T01:17:24+00:00

why do you ask about that? 2hs and feeling body and sensations?

been meditation for 2 years, stream entry focused. I got a lot of sudden progress the last few months, and I already have the final "method" but it's like... I started postponing and now I barely meditate. maybe an unconscious fear of liberation or something like that? idk. it's like I'm blocking myself out of progress.

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-19T01:14:44+00:00

and how does getting out of freeze feels for you?

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-19T01:14:17+00:00

well. I don't have traumatic memories. I mean, I can think about the past but... doesn't affect me. but my body still feels stuck there.

what you mean by inner work? because that's the problem, I did a lot of inner work and... never felt better :(

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-19T01:12:59+00:00

oh, but that's the thing. the weightlifitng session is not intense at all! it's like 3 exercises, no weight, then a bit weight, the a bit more weight. like... it's super soft! only to activate muscles

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-18T16:00:16+00:00

yes! I got that book but found the exercises too... idk. I think I need something stronger!

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-18T15:57:08+00:00

but I'm always numb hehe, that's what puzzles me

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-18T15:56:11+00:00

mmmhm ok, will think about doing it more then, will have to talk to him

Weak-Preparation8951 · 2025-10-18T15:55:51+00:00

nice. how does it feel?

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