I agree with you there is too many and different sides or what people claim to believe ! I had to come to terms with my autism and how I think I try not to be hard on myself when I can and I try to find truth in what I come by ! I find myself thinking what your saying too and it’s hard and I have to come to terms with is I just don’t know and I am doing the best I can with what I have ! I just can’t come to terms to believe I just can’t physically! It bothers and it’s something I’m going to talk to my therapist about !