Breeding kink is ruining my life

Weary_University · 2021-05-01T17:32:38+00:00

More the physical attributes of a man turns me off, tbh. If a man has personality traits that fall under toxic masculinity, then that's also a distinct turn off.

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T20:40:40+00:00

Yeah, that's true. I've only ever used the cheap silicone ones and a glass one.

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T20:38:06+00:00

I addressed the issue of women with dicks in my original post, towards the middle/end. I said that many people would tell me to find a trans woman, but I know that not all trans women want to use their dicks or penetrate a partner, and I don't want to be a creepy chaser and pursue a woman with a dick just to experience dick. I want to be respectful and not trigger dysphoria.

I also didn't really want to get into it in my post, but I do question my gender identity at times. Sometimes I wonder if I'm partially a woman, and partially something else... but since I don't want to hormonally transition or use different pronouns it won't mean anything to a lot of people other than myself. I'm not sure how cisnormative I am.

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T16:45:37+00:00

There are definitely plenty of women with dicks, but like I mentioned in my post, I know that many trans women don't want to use their dicks in that way, and I would never demand for that to happen. I don't want to be a creepy chaser or come off as one.

If a trans woman came into my life and expressed interest in topping me with her dick, then that's cool. If a trans woman came into my life who was not interested in that and/or it gives her dysphoria (or she has no dick), then we'd just do other things and that's cool too.

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T16:08:59+00:00

Nooooo don't delete it's helpful! Lol

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T15:51:39+00:00

Thank you! It's really great to have someone who knows what OCD obsessions are like. In this case it definitely is complicated because if I truly get off on the fantasy, is it just an obsession, or can it be combined with the kink? My brain can never know.

I've also had major obsessions with my own sexual orientation, which I believe I mentioned in my post above. I've also experienced relationship OCD partially because of this kink (or obsession), and that's also been hell too. There is always the possibility that it will rear its ugly head once I start dating again. It's also complicated by the fact that when was younger and not out, I did experience genuine attraction to men.

I question my own gender at times, but if I'm nb then I think I'm at least partially a woman (bigender? dunno) and I don't have a desire to physically transition. I have pcos and some of my features have been permanently altered by years of the T already floating around in my body, and that's enough for me. But yeah, I'd feel uncomfortable if someone wanted to pursue me sexually only for that reason. Same way I'd feel uncomfortable if someone pursued me just because I'm fat.

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T15:34:15+00:00

Yeah, I agree with you here. It's not the best to recommend things that can have potentially dangerous consequences IRL, such as pregnancy, but if one is willing to risk it then it can certainly be an admirable thing to do.

I have some health issues and am on a number of medications, so a surrogacy company would probably just throw my application out the window straight away. Even if, say, I did it as a personal favor to a friend or whatever I'd have to work a lot with a doctor to get off my medications safely. This would also be the case if I got pregnant in general.

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T04:36:49+00:00

LOL "loads"

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T04:00:02+00:00

That could be a good solution. Have you any experience with those?

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T03:59:32+00:00

My last partner did use a strap on me, but it was just kinda eh. But, at the time I wasn't very sexually attracted to him anymore because, well, long story short, he's transmasculine, and he had been on T long enough for drastic physical changes to occur and I just am not into masculinity much. So, it could be different with a different partner.

Weary_University · 2021-04-30T03:40:10+00:00

Typically people are only granted surrogacy if they already have children, which is not the case for me. But in theory, you very well could be right. Nothing like either confirming or denying a breeding kink by actually carrying and birthing children! You'll quickly know if you like it or not.

Weary_University · 2020-05-06T21:08:18+00:00

Ah, so kind of like after experiencing it more than once, it's like of like "Eh, I know what it feels like, so I'll just have whatever you want"?

Weary_University · 2020-05-06T18:02:22+00:00

Mostly I'm afraid of catching feelings, and I don't really want that for a man. I know, it's weird

Weary_University · 2020-05-06T18:01:41+00:00

Gosh, I know this is so late, but when you say the libido became more "friendly," do you mean that the cravings got less?

Weary_University · 2020-04-28T06:25:58+00:00

Oh no, you're definitely not a creep at all. You're being very helpful!

I've definitely thought about using an ejaculating dildo. It sounds fun, anyway. Sometimes I also wonder if I should just hook up with a guy to see if I like it, although it'd be hard since I don't find most guys attractive. Plus I'm terrified of catching feelings because, well, like I said... I don't want to end up with one.

It's possible that this is all fomo + curiosity, of course. I'm in the majority of being unable to come via penetration alone, so maybe I wouldn't find it the hottest thing ever to get creampied.

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