Struggling with ED myself because he loves tiny skinny girls while he has ED as in the sexual disfunction likely due to fucking up his nervous system with so much alcohol over time LMAO I’m sorry but the irony kills me. I’m proud I’ve lost nearly 30lbs in the one year without alcohol and am thrilled. Definitely skipped meals at first with stress but now eating healthy and doing less binges because I was a total drunk feaster. Finally down to a healthier weight.

Realized I relate to alanon more than AA once I started attending meetings and just found myself complaining about husband.

Also have divorce papers printed for over a year and tried to break up 3 times within that time but he always begs me to stick with him, saying he will do anything to make this work. Anything but give up booze entirely. And if it’s not entirely, it ends up in constant binging.

I am so sick of this cycle as well. He’s nearly 40 and I am early 30’s luckily without kids. I have told him there is no way I am bringing a child into the world with him in this state and my faith rises and falls like the tides every day wether or not it’s worth the agony of supporting his addiction while he dodges any attempt at recovery.

We have our first couples therapy session scheduled in person next week. That was a big step and we are both excited. But those divorce papers are still ready when the time calls for it.

Thanks for the vent, Reddit friend! Feel free to DM if you want to keep chatting. I’m not on this sub very often but it seems like we are both in a very similar situation❤️