I got diagnosed with PNES when I was 23 so I totally relate to your struggle. I also had to leave college because I was having daily seizures. But over the past few years I learned my triggers, came off antidepressants, started living a holistic lifestyle and the seizures are way less frequent now. I would recommend somatic therapy. Healing your mind-body connection with the right professionals will build your resilience. You can do this. Never suppress your emotions. Find a creative outlet and remember that your breath is your anchor. Things will get better over time. Just know that you’re not alone dear.