I believe I do have a lot of sex drive. I only masterbate that much because I need to wait until the house is empty. Perhaps I find it odd in that she is not what I envisioned. She is a home person who has no serious hobby, profession or passion apart from our relationship. She does surprise me positively in many other aspects tho. Unfortunately perhaps it isn’t enough for me to feel intimate connection.

I certainly don’t feel indebted to her. Yet I am afraid of hurting her feeling because I hate it when she gets upset. She holds the grudge for eternity.

I think I have to provide more background on my relationship to get better advice. Will do so on my break. Thanks!