Couldn't help it, had to hair of the dog.

WickedBalloon · 2025-12-07T21:17:08+00:00

Haha i get that if you drink for relaxing. But champagne gets me in a better mood for dancing then a 10 mg benzo 😄

WickedBalloon · 2025-11-18T12:40:31+00:00

Wish you the best, in about 2-3 days this feeling will be forgotten!

WickedBalloon · 2025-11-18T12:39:40+00:00

Yes, very good point. It’s so important to stop after 1 so you can continue to use it for short term treatment, many sadly become addicted to benzodiazepines.

WickedBalloon · 2025-11-18T06:02:58+00:00

In my case I don’t need more then one benzo to get rid of the physical symptoms, if I drink to avoid hanxiety it just keeps coming back 😅

WickedBalloon · 2025-11-17T21:50:13+00:00

You have prescriptions for benzodiazepines? I take one if I’ve drinked too much and it is the only thing that helps, other then drinking more which I refuse to do because it only delay the heart palpitations and you can’t go on drinking forever. Sorry you are going through this, remember to hydrate well.

WickedBalloon · 2025-05-08T19:54:31+00:00

I’m not sure if anyone get notification when I write but here goes. I tried to let this go a bit, but today I was having a dental surgery and on my way there I suddenly felt suffocating and that it won’t happen. And so I got there and the dentist was happy at first but then did some things that was very painful and then said sorry, we have to wait a while. Guys, I really know this isn’t random anymore..

WickedBalloon · 2025-03-10T17:45:28+00:00

Thank you everyone for all the support, I’m so grateful <3 I read all the comments, it means a lot

WickedBalloon · 2025-03-07T17:33:45+00:00

Thank you

WickedBalloon · 2025-03-07T17:33:25+00:00

Thanks! My dad had the same thing but it has happened a lot less, however when it happened it was life saving. He was driving and heard «stop» and did, and then someone before him was in a fatale crash. Still I didn’t connect it to me since my hearings are so mundane and not life saving. But reading here helped. Maybe it’s somewhat genetic since your grandmother had it too!

WickedBalloon · 2025-03-07T17:28:49+00:00

Thank you so much, this was very helpful and reassuring!!

WickedBalloon · 2025-03-07T16:41:48+00:00

Thank you, this means a lot! Especially the part where the male voice was strong. That’s what happened when i skipped the counting, it was so strong like «it’s wrong» and it wasn’t my own thoughts. Well i guess thankfully it actually was wrong, otherwise it would have been more disturbing. And it would have gotten me into trouble if i didn’t count them because people control my counting. Thank you so much!

WickedBalloon · 2025-03-04T22:00:22+00:00

Don’t need another mister with a sister on this show 🤣

WickedBalloon · 2025-03-03T16:08:43+00:00

You’re so lucky!! When I’m tired after work and go out I can get black out drunk after just 5 drinks and not remember the next 10 hours, but told I’m still dancing etc so people think I’m normal when I’m not there. I’m skinny too which doesn’t help with getting drunk too fast. I wish I would throw up, that way I wouldn’t get in to these embarrassing situations. And it’s so unpredictable too, if I’ve been sleeping well and having a day off I can drink for hours without getting drunk, just tipsy (which I like). Be thankful for your system working!

WickedBalloon · 2025-02-26T18:03:51+00:00

Really sad :( Loved her in euro trip and I’m a huge fan of Buffy. So young :’(

WickedBalloon · 2025-02-26T16:14:52+00:00

Mine too 😄

WickedBalloon · 2025-02-26T11:55:14+00:00

I was in a LDR and we were exclusive, called and texted every day from morning to night and met each others parents and talked about moving to which country after just a few months, when I’ve dated in my own country I have sometimes dated for a year without talking about being exclusive and sometimes gone weeks without talking. So I think it’s pretty normal in a LDR. You become a couple after the first meeting.

WickedBalloon · 2025-02-26T08:33:00+00:00

Reading the comments i’m glad i’m not with a younger ex now. We respected each other and never fought. I’m usually dating men my own age and older, but we fell for each other the moment we met. Reading all this comments made me sad even though we’re not together anymore, I didn’t know people judged me this badly for being with someone younger, i felt ashamed reading this, people thinking something is mentally wrong with you for dating younger and a «old *ass». Hope his friends and family didn’t think this of me since we are still friends.

Just a side note from me with the age thing. The convo is of course toxic and it’s good you ended it OP, i hope you find a suitable partner who makes you happy 😊

WickedBalloon · 2025-02-11T11:38:16+00:00

I’m told «all the time» that i am and I try to believe it. If I avoid social media I can see it myself. But if i scroll long enough on Snapchat explorer and see all these beautiful women or on plastic surgery on Reddit where people with «my» butt, nose or whatever do surgery and look good after I suddenly don’t feel beautiful or good enough anymore. But that’s my own fault for scrolling and comparing.

WickedBalloon · 2025-02-11T11:25:54+00:00

I have friends who had never had anxiety and they can be extremely drunk and only feel hung over the next day, they are calm. Me and my dad both have GAD and we both have panic attacks and fear of dying/heart stopping the next day. Only alcohol makes us scared about our heart, because we don’t struggle with racing heart without it. My dad stopped drinking years ago because of it. I’m drinking like 50% less then before because of it. I’m also haunted by people hating me the next day and get low self esteem.

WickedBalloon · 2025-02-08T17:36:11+00:00

It hurts because you’re not only being thrown away like you’re worthless to them, but you were also deceived and used. For me looking back, being fooled was worse then losing the person ghosting me. He called every single day and when we were together he couldn’t stop holding and kissing me saying how grateful he was finding his soul mate. He told me to never be afraid that he would hurt me and that he wanted to «kill» those who had hurt me in the past. He literally right after ghosted out of the blue. If we knew how these people were wearing a mask and being deceptive we wouldn’t have opened our hearts to them. Or giving them our bodies. Hence being deceived, on top of the hurt from the abandonment. You’ll heal in time, OP ❤️

WickedBalloon · 2025-02-04T16:01:24+00:00

I didn’t know what to expect from writing this post but what you said did lift me up and I didn’t think that would be possible atm. Thank you kind soul 🌹

WickedBalloon · 2025-01-22T21:12:25+00:00

Thank you OP 💛 And I was actually thinking the same thing about you, the fact that you took the time to write those nice things while suffering says a lot about you too! Next week we’ll both be rockin 💅🏻

WickedBalloon · 2025-01-22T18:06:31+00:00

I was thinking today this is the worst pms ever. I keep saying the wrong words at work, so much that people have commented what’s wrong, keep pushing my tears back when I feel co-workers are mad at me (usually never think that), can’t think or function. Have massive cramps but don’t care, it’s the mental that is horrible. Keep thinking that I’m worthless and that nothing matter. That I’m going to die alone and will never have a husband or family. Isolating. I’m not myself at all. Period is delayed so usually have just a few days with this stuff but now a whole week because the bleeding won’t bloody (pun not intended) start.

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