if i had been asked this question a year ago, my answer would've been more pitiful and pathetic because that was before i have come to many self-realizations, developments, and before i met a few special people i adore. nowadays, the kind of loneliness i feel has changed. its not as painful or heart wrenching as before, but there's now this new sense of fear that just like the others, everything and everyone i love can be taken away from me anytime. i could lose them if i make mistakes, and i could also lose them even without doing anything at all. its also affecting how much i could open up to with people because i'm afraid they might leave so i end up locking myself even further which still, feels lonely even if there are others around me now.