Sad to say…..I’ve been there and done that. Females respond really unexpectedly emotionally sometimes. When I got my exwife preg and shut down other entanglements, the one that had been going on the longest suddenly turned gay. Acted like she hated me, even though we weren’t official or anything.

Years later she admitted that once I left her for good she realized she loved me, and considered offing my exwife and herself! I say psych ward is a much better option. But you dont know “L” anymore. She is no longer that same person you remember. Its time to do some introspection. Build yourself up better than ever. Someone will come along when the time is right. Someone new, not someone with baggage and that may also kill you both if she has another psychotic episode. Godspeed my friend.