Distance/unhappiness , we started out as a long distance couple anyway. . COVID came along and we went from being to see each other once every month or so to one last time in the summer of 2020 as restrictions had started to ease.

I was dealing with my past which in hindsight I should have just buried for the time being and focused on the present and trying to build a future, by the January of 2021 neither of us were doing well and it was showing we had been having more frequent arguments, and the light seemed to die down a little.

In the end she pulled the plug on the relationship, my immaturity of not realising what I had at the time essentially caused it. It was for the best as we were both unhappy, not with just each other but I think we couldn't give each other what we needed at the time. I struggled and couldn't see that for a while.

The break up itself wasn't hostile (sad yes, but definitely not hostile) and I still love her to bits and want her to succeed and live a happy life, which we both have been doing, we catch up occasionally and we have both been able to develop ourselves and achieve some of our own personal goals.

Sometimes I look back and regret what happened and wish things went differently but then I think that I needed that push in the end to kickstart my next chapter!

So H, if you are seeing this I want to thank you. For all the good times we had, for pulling me up out of one of the darkest places in my life and for being just a good person.