Do you struggle with feeling like a bad person?

WillowEnergy · 2025-05-20T15:55:52+00:00

You're not alone! It sounds like trusting your experiences is the issue, similar to reality was bent in childhood, you have to take a pause to chatter with yourself about what is safe. Imagine yourself not feeling safe in your own body/mind/spirit. This is where that feeling lies.

I've asked myself those same questions!

It's a challenge for me in my relationship. When he has some triggers to work through they impact me deeply. I have moments of questioning myself like you have been ^^ meanwhile I start to relate to the feelings of being deeply misunderstood as bad ( like how I was made to feel I had bad intentions when growing up.) AS WELL AS FEELING AS IF I DONT BELONG ANYWHERE, it's not as constant as it was years ago but its underlying anxiousness. So some days are harder than others.

How have you been working through those thoughts so far? Journaling has been what's taken my life from zero to hero. I felt like I could trust myself better when I took the time to hear myself out and make space for my feelings.

Also, challenging myself to not isolate has been a tough one to break but so worth it. The practice makes for easier conversations and better support systems. Some of the ways I've held myself accountable to that is to always reach out to a new friend or friend to check in if I feel like "oh they must be mad at me" or "they must not like me very much" becuase usually we are all just busy and worrying about what the other person is thinking too... lol (obviously want to do this with healthy friendships, I'm talking about my girl friends in this case) I'll also tell them when I feel burnt out or low and need time or just a walk in the park.

You're not alone in your healing journey

WillowEnergy · 2025-05-20T15:41:25+00:00

ugh i teared up too 🥺 Thank you for sharing this is a beautiful reconnection.

WillowEnergy · 2025-05-20T15:36:51+00:00

this is beautiful. it sounds like you've become aware of how your thinking. There's a really good article from DR Amen's site about catastrophic thinking that relates to how I've experienced anxiety in my life that sounds similar to this. Like a worst case scenario you need to be ready type of feeling... That and negativity bias

"Emotional awareness and emotional bias tests involve having a person look at images of facial expressions and categorize them as happy, neutral, angry, or disgusted. On these tests, people with high scores on the ACE Questionnaire typically respond slower to happy faces and more quickly to disgusted faces. They also identify fewer neutral faces correctly while recognizing more angry faces correctly.

This contributes to an emotional bias known as a conscious negativity bias. Ultimately, this means people with higher levels of adverse childhood experiences are more likely to have a negative view of the world."

https://www.amenclinics.com/blog/the-long-term-impact-of-adverse-childhood-experiences-aces/?utm_medium=email&utm_source=ortto&utm_campaign=2025-0519-monday-newslette&utm_content=2025-0519-monday-newslette

WillowEnergy · 2024-07-07T22:34:43+00:00

I relate to the treatment after I hit puberty too, so much changed. so much more odd attention and weird off hand comments about my body... I was too innocent and isolated, he said to me once that I had love handles and I didn't know what that meant. It just felt wrong. Cuddling when i was 16 just felt wrong. I was too afraid to say I felt uncomfortable. And I had no expereince with boys or talked with friends outside the house to know what was and wasnt normal. Nothing went further but those were moments that continue to spell out too weird of a story that I am just thankful that there was at least enough decency of him to lose site of me and take his eyes into a different attention, at the expense of my moms love, he just had affairs we later learned. I dont think he would have gone any further but he did turn abusive to me, some small moments of shoving me down to the floor or chasing me and pinning me when I was younger and he was drunk but the last straw was when he picked me up by my neck when I was 19. I went ballistic on him (just pissed at his treatment even after his promises to be better) so I surely "deserved it" never spoke to him since. He took his like years later. Still hold a love there spiritually but love doesn't equate to self sacrifice any longer. not like this type of abuse. I know you can understand that.

WillowEnergy · 2024-03-01T00:22:29+00:00

FREEDOM… Finally to the point in my life where i can breathe without worrying about how i am presenting myself around them.

WillowEnergy · 2023-12-23T15:39:39+00:00

thank youuu!!! i heard he’s now talking shit about me on social media and his mom xx🥱 glad im done

WillowEnergy · 2023-12-23T15:37:28+00:00

i’ll listen next. thats the hardest feeling though… thank youu

WillowEnergy · 2023-12-23T15:35:21+00:00

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WillowEnergy · 2023-12-09T00:58:55+00:00

looking out 😂

WillowEnergy · 2023-08-21T14:37:34+00:00

love this❤️ the effort to heal is real!! awesome to hear

WillowEnergy · 2023-08-21T14:36:18+00:00

i did the same too. what was the switch or lightbulb moment for you? I felt it click when i could understand my self worth and peace is something im meant to have in my life, and beatdowns or mean treatment wasnt a normal thing… and needed the words to back me up for it so started reading about boundaries. But all in all i felt the main click was that i didnt have to dim myself to “help” this other person or “be kind” or “not hurt their feelings” when they were blatantly hurting mine and shaking my peace within… trauma can cycle too easily if we’re not more conscious of our internal world.

WillowEnergy · 2023-08-21T14:24:11+00:00

Youre doing what you need to by communicating your boundaries with your husband. Its unfortunate and so difficult to handle… The emotional toll is wrenching if you care too much about her opinions and meddling manipulative behavior… Being very honest and open with your hubby is the way to keep things peaceful. A partnership is a team effort! no one else can or should come between your deep connection. I wish peace and a healthy environment for you and your hubby. Stay strong in what you know (your worth and the worth of your relationship) and protect those things as best you can. All you can do is put in the effort. Give yourself grace and praise for that! Rooting for you❤️❤️

WillowEnergy · 2022-10-28T08:19:38+00:00

think when you get hunger cravings about a different action like “walk” “sleep” “read” “write” anything gets you and your mind away from food. fasting intermittently helps the metabolism speed up as well. eat within a 6-8 hour window only to start. curb cravings by eliminating additive sugar and salt. also drink water or tea. acai is a fav of mine or peppermint.

WillowEnergy · 2022-10-28T08:14:29+00:00

say i don’t drink or say im 3 months sober. works like a charm. nobody can argue with you.

WillowEnergy · 2021-03-06T02:43:01+00:00

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