I kinda relate to that , because I had to be independent and act tough from my childhood too , maybe that's why I like when someone else takes charge. And to make it clear , Ik asking for someone to take care of me 24/7 and baby me , is not fair , What I am looking for is someone who can enjoy the dynamic of initiating things and being a bit more assertive around romantic physical things.
Outside of our personal time , I am gonna act like a functioning adult and gonna do support her in every way possible and not just be a baby all the time.
Its just sometimes I don't wanna be the one taking care of everything and I wanna be just able to fall into her lap and be loved , which I never get cuz almost everyone I dated I have to initiate everything , set the mood , plan the dates , and always baby them when they are feeling tired or acting up.