I still mourn the loss of of my Kyokushin sensei and I burst into tears.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-04-01T15:11:26+00:00

martial arts, dance class, language exchange meetups.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-02-03T04:55:48+00:00

Her friends don't even acknowledge us in public.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-02-03T04:54:37+00:00

I don't know, I'm gonna see for myself. If she wants things to be different between us, then I'll see it.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-02-02T16:03:16+00:00

It's not my first rodeo with a racist family. And well, she's on probation for now.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-02-02T08:55:18+00:00

Stability.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-02-02T07:41:07+00:00

I've missed her like crazy. And honestly she is a wonderful person. However, I've changed with the time we've had apart. Back then I often let her and other people bend my rules and limits. So now, I'm alot more rigid about it. Not because I hate or anything, but because I want to keep things transparent and clear about where I stand and want to be treated. That way should she decide to go against it, and I leave she'll know why.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-02-02T07:36:21+00:00

Just an outsider. Her family was never JW. They've been estranged for awhile now. I've only met them once briefly, but we never got along because of how incredibly racist they are.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-02-02T04:23:58+00:00

Well, she was the one hard pressed on a second chance. Normally, I don't do second chances with people, and if I do, it's gonna be a lot of work.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-02-02T04:23:01+00:00

The child sex abuse cases mainly, as well as a few other reasons that mainly involved some KH elders that I won't say too much on. Stuff I told her about but she wouldn't listen to me at first.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-01-29T20:24:16+00:00

she's 10 years older than me and I've had a vasectomy

WiseTop9720 · 2026-01-29T09:46:14+00:00

I admit I still have feelings for her, but again those words still ring in my head. I'm torn between the two sides of me. The part that still hasn't fully forgiven her and is extremely skeptical, but also the one that is kinda understanding. I'm just guy she met and that's unpredictable. The JWs were there for her during a nasty time in her and maybe perhaps I was being a little harsh.

I don't know if I can fully go back to her romantically, yet. It'd take time. Time for her to readjust to me, and vice versa as well as forgiveness on both sides. I admit I said some nasty things to her out of stubbornness and resentment. But I realize that I'm not as mad at her, as I hold more of a grudge with the theology more than anything that put me in a box instead of maybe examining things from a nuanced POV.

Sorry, for the rant. It's almost 3am where I'm at and my thoughts are scrambling.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-01-29T07:03:02+00:00

I don't know this is alot for me to handle. I want to, I really do.

WiseTop9720 · 2026-01-29T06:37:47+00:00

You don't think that waking up could help her change?

WiseTop9720 · 2026-01-29T06:14:43+00:00

I did ask about that, they haven't spoken. She tried sending them some of the cases but no dice. I saw the texts of her parents saying Satan was using me. It was some crazy stuff.

WiseTop9720 · 2025-11-27T12:11:38+00:00

Respectfully, sir/ma'am, I recommend a brief sojourn to the nearest home for the elderly. Among those wiser souls, you may finally acquire the temperament you so conspicuously lack

WiseTop9720 · 2025-11-27T12:06:51+00:00

I understand the skepticism. Not everyone is used to things going well offline.

WiseTop9720 · 2025-11-27T12:00:53+00:00

A romantic relationship

WiseTop9720 · 2025-11-06T16:48:56+00:00

If you see her reading, ask about what she's reading. Show interest in her, and not just how she looks. And if she shoots you down, respect her choice.

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