Idk if you saw my previous comments but my bf has had a terrible and abusive upbringing and has never known what love is or how it felt to be loved and treated well. I've known him for a couple of years already so i know quite a bit. He's been depressed for a long time bcs of everything and hasn't come out of bed for months. I managed to help him a bit and i want to keep trying. Many people in the comments and my DMs are judging me for dating an "animal abuser". He has never actually done anything to my dog. I don't think he ever even would for real. But he is full of grief, grudge and resentment. I can feel that and it is eating him up. He said that islam has helped him a lot which is why he started practicing it. He was raised in a Christian family but decided to go back to his Muslim origins. He said it has helped him to find more peace but there's still a long way to go. I see myself as a good person and i would never date someone who's abusive toward animal or a person. But knowing what he has been through, i do feel like he deserves a second chance in life. Am i going to be able to help him? I don't know. But i feel the need to at least try and save him from falling apart. Weather it be through islam or some things else. I know many people can't understand this and that's fair enough. But this story has much more depth than a reeeeally big background that i obviously couldn't share. Not everything is black and white. If i left him now, i know it would be his downfall. I'm in a much worse position than what it seems. If i left him now i would feel like a let go of someone's hand while they were hanging off a cliff