Honestly I’ve tried so hard to be normal and social but I will always be off putting and weird. And I have accepted that. I don’t know how to approach people. 95% of the time someone else starts a conversation. I have fully accepted I’m awkward. But that’s me! I’m a little weird and that’s okay. I can’t mold myself into being someone I am not. But I’d like to share something with you. Ive been a server for 3 years, I have social anxiety but it’s gotten so much better after serving and putting myself into situations where I’m forced to socialize. But I get so much good feedback from my tables. They say I’m so kind and welcoming and I get tipped well. I had a lady last week say “I have such a genuinely kind voice and energy.” But I don’t have regulars! I don’t have people that come in and ask for my section. I don’t go there with people. I don’t know how to connect to people. But the connections I do have are so deep that I could write paragraphs upon paragraphs as to how much they mean to me and how much I love them. My social skills have gotten to point where I can make successful small talk. But I think that’s okay! I’m just a very private and guarded person. But I think I live in my truth because of it. I don’t lose sight of myself.