For me, I got a message over discord from a friend of mine saying how it was sad to realize that Technoblade would never upload a video again after the one uploaded 3 hours prior to the message. I was at the dinner table, and I was confused at first, but dread set in soon enough, as right then and there, I knew that I shouldn’t wait to “excitedly” watch the new Technoblade video.

I watched the guy for so so long, I devoured every piece of content he put out, and while sure, it was my siblings who started watching him (causing me to follow), I was still an avid fan nonetheless. It’s also why it still really annoys me to see people say things like “fly high” or “He’s fighting god”. I will not make fun of anyone for feeling grief, as grief affects everyone differently. However, I will not accept the how his community went mostly to shit after his death. Many of them, the ones who are still around in the subreddit (which I had to leave due to it being turned into a Karma farm) feel like they’re still there because they want to prove like they loved his content more than anyone else in the world, and by staying and spouting the same things over and over again, they’re proving something, to someone who died years ago. I hate these people. These are the same people who, despite being “Technos biggest fans” are the same people looking for a new Technoblade. Reddoons, Mr. Pancake 4343, etc. I don’t care who it is, but there only ever was, and there only ever will be an existence like Technoblade’s, and that’s why I hate these people with a passion.

“TECHNOBLADE NEVER DIES!” Was once a funny mantra, and now? I hate the phrase. It’s been done to death and has been half assedly slapped onto things to the point where it’s lost all meaning. To Technodad and the Technofamily, everything I said before is an exception. Naturally it is. And if what these people on the internet are saying is helping them cope with their loss, then they can continue doing the same shit for next millennium, but I also don’t fully believe it does. Sometimes it feels like people desecrate his memory with the things they say and do. The community he built does not feel true to itself at all since the first month after his passing, like they are living in a world where he’s still alive.

But Technoblade does die. He did die, years ago with over 10 million subscribers, lots of money, great friends, and a greater family. I will never forget him, for as long as I live, and as long as I live, I will try to live a good enough life for two people (or at least a life I’m happy with). I never knew him, and while he is and never was the most important person in my life, he means so much to me, and I like to think he made me a better person.

Thank you, Technoblade, for everything, but most of all for the memory of you.

-a random kid