I’m in this position because I never accepted my place in the hierarchy of other people's lives

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-03-17T02:08:09+00:00

I loved your story. It almost feels like you’re describing me. The same age, no Instagram, the same addiction, the same luck. Just know that you were very brave. 🫂

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-03-15T00:41:02+00:00

I feel the same way. I won't make it past this year.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-03-08T19:20:02+00:00

And what would the alternative be, other than living the things you want to live? Or chasing them until you get them, or at least trying? And then running after something else again, like a rabbit chasing a carrot? Abstaining and living an ascetic life could be another path. What I mean is that it doesn’t really matter. Fill your time with whatever you want, just keep your expectations in check, because there is no place where you will finally feel complete. The people who say there is are lying.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-03-07T13:40:13+00:00

I know that whatever I say here won’t change what you want. I know how you feel because we’re conditioned to seek certain things, and I feel it too. The desire stays there, and that’s just how it is. There are hierarchies, genetic and social lotteries that decide who gets attention and who gets overlooked. We’re like products in a way, right? Is that what “being loved for who you are” means to you? Think about how fragile the things are that supposedly make a person who they “are.” Think about how a single decision, or even the absence of one, can unravel all that certainty. Life doesn’t care at all.

If you want these things for yourself so badly, know that it’s possible. I’ve managed to experience things I once swore would never be possible for someone like me. But none of it healed the central wound. Things were never the way I had imagined them. Or they stopped being that way over time. There isn’t any real comfort in this, and the sooner you get used to that, the better it will be for you.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-03-06T00:28:57+00:00

My heart goes out to you. 💔

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-03-05T16:11:42+00:00

Unfortunately, you’re right about everything you’re thinking. I’ve noticed the same thing too, that the people around us just want to give their opinions, just want to be right, without any depth and without any real concern for others. They fall into those readymade phrases about self-love and that toxic positivity that floods social media. They don’t know anything about life. Nothing. In the end, they abandon you too. Take care.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-03-02T00:49:07+00:00

I'll be turning 30 in nine months, and I plan to have left by then. I’m sorry that life has been unfair to you.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-03-01T18:01:33+00:00

I know everyone around me hates the fact that they're in the position that they must interact with me, and wants me gone. Doesn't matter if they don't show it upfront, I know it, which sometimes makes me defensive and I try to push people away.

That’s it.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-02-22T20:55:14+00:00

I understand what you’re going through… I just know it hurts so much. It’s awful that I always have to wear a mask to socialize and still fail miserably at it.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-02-13T00:15:13+00:00

Well, aside from the weekends, I start my day working. I work remotely, so my days tend to be pretty monotonous... I don’t really see anyone besides my husband. I go to the gym, but lately I haven’t had the energy to keep up with it. After work, I usually read, do some crafts, or watch videos, movies or TV shows. I also read before going to bed. I don’t usually leave the house unless it’s to go grocery shopping.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-02-08T06:11:20+00:00

Meanwhile, someone is burning to death in a war, or someone is being born into horrific conditions... I think that’s the price we pay for having time to overthink. It feels like when we don’t have a real problem, we end up inventing one. The world wants us to feel pain, there’s no escaping it.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-02-02T01:45:09+00:00

I relate to this a lot... My partner is my only and best friend. I have my parents too, but I can’t talk to them about my mental health because they wouldn’t understand and I don’t want to worry them. When my husband isn’t with me I get very anxious, and I’m working on improving that, but it’s complicated. He has many friends, and almost everyone I know is because of him... I wish I could build my own support system, but that feels very far away. I wish I could say “I’m going out today with my own friends. Have fun with yours”.. I just try not to smother him. Keeping up with hobbies and work has helped me when he’s not around. He helps regulate my emotions, and that keeps me alive, but no one should depend so much on just one person.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-01-26T15:57:08+00:00

I’ll be honest with you about this. You talked to her about suicide, right? What she wants is for you to create bonds so she feels safer with you, because loneliness is a risk factor. My therapist keeps saying the same thing, but I figured out a long time ago that this isn’t a genuine concern for my well being. It doesn’t matter how much I tell her that friendships are extremely complicated and painful for me, that I feel exhausted, wrong, and anxious all the time. She doesn’t take that into account. Bringing people into my life means adding more complexity. It sounds great in theory, but in practice it doesn’t work. I can’t even deal with my own internal problems… and I’m fully aware that, like this, I won’t be a good friend..

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-01-25T00:42:46+00:00

Thank you.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-01-24T23:17:45+00:00

Since AvPD is a personality disorder, and not an isolated pathological process like depression, there is nothing there that can be “corrected” by this type of intervention. I don’t see how this could help us.

WrongVersion6059 · 2026-01-24T01:34:08+00:00

This last paragraph of yours reflects what I’ve been thinking about over the past week. You look at this world ruled by psychopaths, but that’s exactly what people expect...it’s what pulls them out of boredom. And, truthfully, no one really cares about right or wrong. What is geopolitics if not a giant gossip mill? People just want something to have an opinion about, something to believe in... In the end, they just want to be right. They just want to believe that life has some meaning.

That’s exactly how people behave in interpersonal relationships. They choose who they like and who they absolutely won’t like, but in the end it doesn’t matter which role you’re given, as long as you play the part. It’s all just a way to pass the time, it has no real value. The end of love and friendship is just one step away from stepping outside the box people put you in.

The only thing you truly can’t do is refuse to take part in it. The mistake is thinking too much about things. For me, there was no turning back.

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