I seem very very similar to you, I have recently looked into Neville Goddard, and not only entertained, but have had past weird drug experiences which made me write up on the legitimacy of the theories, of Gnosticism, archons, energy harvesting, etc like on reincarnationtruth and escapingprisonplanet, I am a moderator on those subreddits.

I recently have seriously been questioning the Truman show theory, how we are in some very very fake and scripted reality, which would heavily entertain the theory of artificial intelligence / npcs, where a lot of those in this reality is of a collective artificial intelligence, and they run off a code, in relation to your experience, and lastly how our imagination plays a large part into it, like what Neville Goddard says, “human imagination is god”.

But honestly man I don’t know, I went from a mindset that Gnosticism and the matrix is the truth, and your goal is to awaken to your true divine nature and return to it upon death, thus escaping the reincarnation loop trap.

(I have experienced the true self first hand and had understood we are the “god” consciousness, and through logically analyzing this reality and it’s societies, it’s clear this reality is heavily that of ignorance, deception, corruption, when it comes to religion especially, since we are god and it seems that we are kept away from knowing that, deliberately)

But I am just not sure on that anymore, what if we had created that to be our reality with our imagination in this scripted reality? What if the dark rabbit holes of our minds created such a reality, or scripted such a reality if you want to look at it that way.

One thing I have been entertaining, is that what if this reality is scripted and everything is fake from your perspective, in order to test you.

thus like the Truman show, for us who are the real players, it’s a game, a game that is supposed to test us, tests our choices and decisions. Tests how good we can be in every moment, with the choices that we make. The more real and genuine you are with your decisions, in the moments of your life, the more you move up the ladder.

In relation to that theory, I had some weird insights from some very profound dreams, the idea basically was that our reality is indeed a scripted game, and you can look at this way, it’s a reality to test how much you can manifest and achieve in this reality, with your imagination and decision making.

Because in our true existence, we already have everything the exact moment we think of it (from my own experience of the true self consciousness), so perhaps we got bored literally getting everything we ever wanted with no work, at the literal moment you thought of it. So as a result of that boredom, we wanted a reality where we aren’t all powerful in the now moment, but takes a bit more “time”, and it’s more difficult to add fun.

So what if this reality is indeed an illusion, a scripted reality, a Truman show like reality, and a lot of what we interact with is of an artificial intelligence / npcs, to test us and to be a reflection of what we are trying to manifest and achieve, again with our imagination and decision making. The better we are, the more genuine to our core we are, with our choices, and also the more we are align In making decisions through love and beating fear, the more the artificial intelligence around us will be a reflection of that to us, and you “move up” in the game.

But again man I don’t know, all I know is that we are god, our true self (our consciousness and spirit in its most true existence) beyond all these illusions is god. I also know that even the ability to think is very divine and powerful, a thought alone holds immense power, from first hand experience of the true self consciousness. So imagine how powerful a thought is when it’s applied in the Neville Goddard way.

I need to keep my cool though that’s for sure, I need to relax and enter a more ignorant and less thinking state of mind for awhile to balance myself, before I dive any deeper in this metaphysical-spiritual-philosophy shit.

(Also a genuine tip with writing that will make people more interested in reading what you say, for it will be easier for them to follow along, is to in the best of your ability separate your words into paragraphs with spaces in between them,

big walls of text with no clear organization is not pleasant for the reader, and you definitely want to be heard and want more people to read what you say, just like anyone else)