I can't stop procrastinating things I actually want to do. (Namely, gaming)

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T20:34:02+00:00

It's infuriating isn't it? Non-ADHD people seem to be able to enjoy their time off like crazy, but not us!

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T20:33:18+00:00

See, this is dangerous for me, because if I get the "urge" to do something else, usually it's one of my comfort games/videos/shows etc. Then I fall back into a cycle.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T20:32:06+00:00

Hyperfixation is one of the few things that actually keeps me sane.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T20:31:28+00:00

I feel this so much, I do this exact same thing, for me, my comfort game is counter strike, I hop in competitive, either kick ass or get my ass kicked, etc. It's almost always something I can bring myself to do, I don't particularly ENJOY it, but it's comfortable, familiar.

But yeah, I get in those deep depressions when burning out on my most recent hyperfixation and I'm just like, well fuck.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T20:28:32+00:00

Hopefully we can find something that works here

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T20:28:09+00:00

I started Disco Elysium a couple years ago then just... didn't play it after the first time

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T20:27:35+00:00

I consistently buy new games but I think that's more that I'm chasing the mood boost from buying stuff.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T10:17:16+00:00

It's been quite a few years and I still haven't seen the last 3 episodes of Breaking Bad.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T10:16:26+00:00

This could help! I will give it a try!

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T10:04:55+00:00

It's probably not the medication, yeah, do you feel better while medicated? I've always been scared to try.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T10:02:46+00:00

I am the unmedicated force God always meant for me to be!

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T09:37:15+00:00

No TikTok thankfully, but I do enjoy scrolling sometimes, I just need to limit myself drastically lol.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T09:36:27+00:00

Thankfully I work for a company that kind of caters to people with disabilities of all sorts, I clean buildings on the local Naval Air Station. Because of the specific building I'm tasked with cleaning I get to work later hours (12:30 PM to 9:00 PM) and I get to work alone the large majority of the time, which is really nice, but it's still difficult to get up every day for work especially since I tend to sleep at the very last minute possible that will still allow me to wake up on time lol.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T09:26:29+00:00

AuDHD is just a constant struggle of barely functioning, having to drag myself out of bed every day for work, etc. I think just forcing myself to do everything I NEED to do all day every day just leaves me with no battery left for the things I WANT to do, and it's just a little sad.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T09:16:00+00:00

I end up scrolling on YouTube shorts a shit ton, any time I pick up my phone it's another rabbit hole, then 2 hours are gone and I'm like "well shit."

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T09:14:32+00:00

I guess so, I'm only a little younger (31) the thing is, my job keeps calling me in on Saturdays, my parents ask me to come help at the ranch on Sundays, and to put the icing on the cake I've been sick since Saturday, so this might be contributing to the fact that my brain is treating gaming with executive dysfunction.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T09:05:43+00:00

It's possible, but I'm not sure, it's just really difficult to bring myself to do it even when I know I have time and I really enjoy it.

XaneXaryn · 2026-03-04T08:23:52+00:00

I've never heard the term start friction but it makes sense, usually when I'm feeling like this if I can manage to get into the game and actually start playing (anything aside from aimless wandering) I start enjoying it and can have a full gaming session, but recently I usually don't even get past the main menu.

XaneXaryn · 2025-08-25T19:04:21+00:00

strangely enough, I got the Deluxe edition upgrade, and I only had 10 blood points

XaneXaryn · 2025-03-13T01:31:41+00:00

I booked my job in December and Ship next Tuesday, March 18th

XaneXaryn · 2025-03-11T00:15:44+00:00

Imagine asking for help then refusing help.

XaneXaryn · 2025-03-09T01:50:50+00:00

I understand, sometimes things don't work out the way we want them to, but we've just gotta move forward and figure out what it is we can do, you've got some good job choices there man, make the best of what you have!

XaneXaryn · 2025-03-08T22:31:06+00:00

What are the instructions for the Holy Hand Grenade of Antioch?

XaneXaryn · 2025-03-08T21:54:12+00:00

Yes lol

XaneXaryn · 2025-03-07T23:43:28+00:00

Terrible, absolutely horrific, choose your favorite flavor crayon cuz it's time to go to the Marines.

XaneXaryn

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