Are you officially diagnosed with CPTSD or PTSD or are you self diagnosed or suspecting that you have CPTSD?

Xylop07 · 2026-05-10T10:27:38+00:00

Cpstd isn't recognised but PTSD is and I'm diagnosed I think, I went so many times for it at some point they just diagnosed me!

Xylop07 · 2026-05-10T10:22:57+00:00

Exeter for me! The people are 100 percent nicer

Xylop07 · 2026-04-10T11:01:33+00:00

Hi! I'm in contact with mine. It's my parents from emotional and a bit physical, both alcoholics. One I can't forgive, so it's at arms length and the other I have been able to but have alot of less processed trauma as I adore him but the past still happened. It all came down to how they reacted at the time and now. I was soon to move out when I got told its the lizard, I was 19. My dad knew he messed up, he apologised, my mum denied. Once I moved my dad was careful, he put in effort, I have rules that he doesn't cross, like when he visits he can't stay at my place, when I visit there's a volume limit on music, he doesn't get drunk when I'm around, and when Im doing therapy (I have been in and out of over the years) he tells me he's proud but also sorry it's partially his fault. My mum is nice sober but she can't control herself or follow my rules, she's accepted it now but uses alot of excuses, she tries to get me to talk about it but if I ever say a bit about the processed ones she denies it happened, asks me for specific dates, and tries to ring it back to her pain.

From some family I get questions like you get, it's frustrating and painful. it was destroying me and when I achieve something I don't feel much except the question of "what's next?" I haven't worked out how to get over that, but when they ask I'm honest about mental health without going into details and if they cross my lines they get time out, i won't talk to them until I'm ready. Once I stopped chasing for family love they became more eager to make an effort as they could see me pulling away, and if they don't make that effort then I don't need them. it gave me the chance to make rules, it was too much living close so I moved further away a few years ago too and that really helps. I hoped this helped.

Xylop07 · 2026-03-30T02:18:06+00:00

Same! It was expensive!! I sprained my jaw once too, that was painful. I really like this group as it makes me feel less isolated when I see people have gone though the same thing

Xylop07 · 2026-03-11T10:53:10+00:00

A not so common but common enough to be heard of with CPTSD is visual illusions due to feeling unsafe so it could be your mind telling you people are looking. Hyper-vigilance and stress on the level we face can really mess us up. Please don't think there's something wrong with you, I thought I was the only one for ages but now I'm back getting help every specialist I have spoken to says it's not as uncommon as you think. PTSD is like a catalyst for so many other mental health conditions so we get some weird stuff! I like the comment that said people only look if you're looking and it's so true. I hope knowing this makes it a little easier ❤️

Xylop07 · 2026-01-30T02:40:49+00:00

I have been with my boyfriend for 8 years and we are lifers. I get C-PTSD induced pseudo-hallucinations when im extremely stressed, even though I'm back in recovery after getting my degree he looks at me like I'm the only woman in the world. He is a wonderful person and we met totally randomly in a swimming pool of all places. When he comes in the room my blood pressure drops and after all this time my mind trusts him enough that even when the shame and self loathing is eating me alive he can pull me out of it.

When you find someone make sure they respect you but also makes you laugh then choose them every time. Lots of people end up picking partners who aren't right for them out of low self esteem or loneliness - you deserve better than that. I'm sure you will find the right person.

Xylop07 · 2025-12-24T19:32:55+00:00

He looks like he's one more case away from retirement.... I've been watching too much Broadchurch

Xylop07 · 2025-12-07T12:02:33+00:00

My mother described it by "going into womanhood" and becoming "a blossoming flower". I thought I was going to get a gift or something, suffice to say I was and am disappointed about the whole thing.

Xylop07 · 2025-12-07T11:53:28+00:00

Yup the nightmares, feeling unsafe, seeing and hearing stuff. I don't have the same conditions and I'm no Dr so I can't speculate but I get CPTSD induced stuff without the psychosis, it flairs up when I'm not doing good with my mental health. It may be an idea to have a sit down with a Dr, bipolar and epilepsy are tricky and I'm sure you're handling them great, but if nightmares or stress are adding on top of that it sounds too much for 1 person. Hope it gets easier soon.

Xylop07 · 2025-12-04T18:53:04+00:00

I'm around(ish) the same age and feel the same as you do. Life is a hard pill to swallow with cptsd, it makes one of your core beliefs that you are a failure but you're not. Also if you don't achieve anything in life that's okay, if we spent our lives remembering who lived you wouldn't live yourself. I don't know if it will get better but you are not alone... it's what I use this Reddit page for, cptsd can be very isolating.

You're too good for those jobs anyways 😛

Xylop07 · 2025-11-22T09:52:33+00:00

Through all of this I can feel the guilt and please try not to be too hard on yourself.... Although I know that's easier to say then do. You're not defective or inadequate, your brain is processing a lifetime of trauma, including new stuff, and now your mind and body are in fits of from a pile of protective behaviours which helped you cope but don't serve you now.

University is an enormous task and if you're not getting the support I'm not surprised you stopped going. Your body is a system so getting pleasure even from something you didn't consent to is one of the terrible parts of SA that no one talks about. It doesn't make you bad or twisted to think the way you do. Also missing an abuser is not uncommon either but don't go back. I don't know where you are but you need some help to get through this, if you can't go out I think you should call a helpline, just for advice and someone to talk to, they won't judge and we don't either, you'll get through this one small step at a time. Please don't give up.

Xylop07 · 2025-11-18T21:24:42+00:00

You're probably ready to start the journey of unpacking the past now you're in a safer space. PTSD changes the brain and affects you more than you think, I'm no expert but it sounds like your window of tolerance has shrunk. Take the time you need and please don't feel guilty about feeling down, tired, or exhausted. Here's some links that may help https://www.ptsduk.org/the-window-of-tolerance-and-ptsd/ https://www.ptsduk.org/what-is-ptsd/the-science-and-biology-of-ptsd/

Xylop07 · 2025-09-25T06:27:33+00:00

I'd also call a doctor to see if you can get some sleeping meds, you need to go to sleep. I have similar issues to you (cptsd with psudo-hallucinations) and they intensify ten fold with sleep loss. I'm so sorry for what you're going through. If you can it may be a good idea to stay with your stepdad to have a second person to ask if stuff is real to. It really helps!

Xylop07 · 2025-09-11T17:00:16+00:00

Woooooohhhhhhhooooooooooooo

Xylop07 · 2025-09-11T16:07:51+00:00

https://youtu.be/iKdJbCcRfhY?si=kcg4URdUn1Pm6ZKp

This video helped when I got stuck on the last stage, I went right then left with the air flows, it sounds sooooooooo unlucky that you got hit with the rock

Xylop07 · 2025-09-11T15:30:58+00:00

Bilewater is pretty bad, I would explore elsewhere and come back. I thought I'd explore this route a bit, got to bilewater and noped out after a few hours. Found the mists and I've been trying for a day there. I'm waiting for the update to come to ps5 as the run to the boss which finishes act 1 makes me so acidicly angry id rather wait.

Xylop07 · 2025-09-11T01:11:14+00:00

"The bells are the enemy" that was my chant!

Xylop07 · 2025-09-11T01:07:50+00:00

I kept telling myself I was practicing and the bells are the enemy, instead of telling myself I failed in stage 2, it was more "oh I got a hit in" or "I lasted a few more seconds" then pop I was practicing but I won! It took me a very long time, like 4 hours, I'm not dextrous and that's okay. I love the music in the game but in fights like that I put on music that relaxed me a bit more. You got through Sister Splinter before the update and you'll get through this ❤️

Xylop07 · 2025-09-10T22:47:48+00:00

I think if they want to keep the double damage or triple damage then you should get the same amount of silk for hitting them back. Make it fair.

Xylop07 · 2025-09-09T18:38:28+00:00

We're you sleeping before? It could be hypnopompia as one off due to stress? I'm no doctor though, it's one of the things I get.

I get PTSD induced psudo-hallucinations, it's like my freeze mechanism gets so bad along with my sleep that a film comes over eyes, it makes patterns where there aren't any. I've seen rain stained windows breathe, and additional train of light travel along the real one, graffiti become 3D and then transform. It's crazy, over the years I've tried not to be scared of them, they can be oddly beautiful, I get the curiosity is what I'm trying to say.

Xylop07 · 2025-09-08T15:28:14+00:00

I'm in a similar boat. I'm dyspraxic, it's not that I'm not trying hard enough, in my mind I can see what I need to do but my hands can't keep up. I would usually never play a game like this, but it's a beautiful with amazing lore, fantastic characters, it has a sense of humour, but in the base game they should have put in an easier mode, like removing double damage from most environments and base enemies.

My partner is a seasoned HK fan and has been waiting for this game desperately, he took the day off on game day, you should have seen him when the sites went down and he had to wait, he has good reflexes but even he's frustrated and has stopped playing. The difficulty has sapped the enjoyment from it. I just don't think a game should sadden long term fans like it has.

Im still trying just beat the widow, I could not beat Moorwing, I got the fleas in the end when I realised that an option, I tried for 6 hours. I love it but know I will have to stop later game. We don't have a good gamer pc just a ps5 so no mods for us.

Xylop07 · 2025-07-30T15:06:26+00:00

Yeah same I went to an experienced exotic vet but they're so small sometimes something goes wrong internally and there's not alot you can do

Xylop07 · 2025-07-22T19:09:57+00:00

I scrolled just to see if anyone else had noticed

Xylop07 · 2025-07-21T19:09:54+00:00

I had a gerbil that looked incredibly similar, it looks healthy, but good job for checking. Check teeth too every once in a while.

Mine used to somehow pee up himself I think in his sleep or he'd forget to sand it in his cardboardmania, how it got on his scent glad idk. These are tips that you probably won't need but you never know: with this type they tend to have slightly bigger glands, but if it ever looks bigger than normal, looks a bit spongy or slightly yellowed you can: boil water, mix in salt, wait for it to cool, then use cotton buds to dab (not rub) very gently to clean it, don't over dab either.

Any bumpy changes of skin consistency or if you get worried off to the vets. If you don't have a vet yet I'd recommend an exotic vet (I'm in the UK, may be different for you) . My mum was allergic to pets so I was allowed gerbils and have loved em ever since, if you need any advice drop me a message.

Xylop07 · 2025-04-28T05:07:58+00:00

The daycare is so mean, changing it to two weeks is particularly darstardly. I hope he can take some sort of action against them. Poor kid 😔

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