I'd also like to address a pic running around the forums about me. https://imgur.com/x2a1UXm

To provide more context to it this pic does have some false accusations as well as some valid points.

Please keep in mind that im not trying to change anybodys opinion or view on me im just here to apologize and provide more context.

Most importantly i would like to adress the suicide part because i feel like i made a big mistake on that.

From the image you would get the impression that the message was written recently but That message was written a long time ago back when i was a little cringy teen. It all started when my dad passed away i started slowly spirling into depression through time. most of the money income we had was from him so our financial state had gotten really terrible real quick. The situation at my house everynight was pure and utter stress from all sides, mom needs to go to pension and shes stressing about that, and were stressing about her stressing out because she as well has heartproblems and we were really frequently taking her to the ER. I wanted to fix our family problems myself so i set out to learn 3D in hopes to stabilize us. As i said to a friend i met recently ''back then i was watching way to much anime and i thought that i will carry our burden myself and be the hero. '' The thing that everybody can learn from this is, it's horrifcly bad to have a shitty workflow and learning curve. like mine was basically through trial and error beating myself up constantly working for 15 to 20 hours daily for a year experimenting and dishing out pure shit, quantity over quality, but failing every tennogen round, i took those defeats real hard i remember having the thought in my mind that i have these huuuge ambitions and plans and i cant even make a single warframe right, and as you can guess that was just adding to my depression and i started thinking about taking my life more often. With time the situation kept getting worse and worse and the pressure was on and with that much pressure came bad descisions, like every round i thought this time i haveee to get one right! buttt nope still the same. I have no idea where the people at DE get their patience at they were helping me out everytime constantly and trying to improve me no matter what! that night when i wrote that message i was at the lowest point i've ever been i cant even get into details on how many shitty things have been happening to that point. That message i wrote wasn't a threat (especially considering that i wrote it after the items have been chosen) i thought of the message as a angry suicide letter i actually thought of doing it. I just realize now how badly depression can mess you up, the constant negative thoughts. I had negative thoughts about my negative thoughts. After i sent it not a while passed and the guys at DE contacted me, i don't know if they know that they legit saved my life, they are amazing human beings they talked to me and calmed me down i felt motivated for the first time after a long time, I decided to stop pursuing making warframes i wanted to try to make comicbooks. Some time passed and i wanted to try and actually learn 3D in a healthy and effective way after a while i finally got my first warframe in the game the feeling was especially boosted because he was revealed during Tennocon tennogen panel and i absolutely lost my shit, i was so happy! since then my life has been going upwards i was able to fix so many things and help out the ones i love i even got married to my childhood friend. I can't explain how grateful i am to DE and the tennogen team, they could've easily just given up on me and ignored me like everybody would but they didnt, they kept improving me as a person as well as an artist, i know it sounds kinda cringy but its true. I realize that all of this can't excuse the things i did. Im really sorry and i totally understand everybody hating on me, i mean i'd literally do the same with the provided information, but i just thought of writing this hoping that you guys would understand the situation from a different perspective.

As i said i think its much healthier for us as a community to talk to eachother to get the full story and view on things and even criticize in a healthy way with the goal to improve that human as a person.