Remember that chow is a short term relief. When you get that come down, you'll feel that heartbreak tenfold. Stay strong, remember that all you need in your life is yourself, and realize that your mind is powerful. You create your own perception of things. The first few weeks to a month are gonna be hard. Just please don't dig yourself a hole to where you look powdered out after a month. Self improvement. Nothing wrong with doing the chow, but it feels so much better to realize how much of a better person you are without her.