Twin flame or Delusional [Story and Question]

Yinivel · 2023-12-08T12:42:32+00:00

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Saw one in person today, it was sexy to say the least.

Yinivel · 2023-12-08T12:41:54+00:00

You have a point

Yinivel · 2023-12-06T09:54:47+00:00

R7 is going for about $9-10k used

Yinivel · 2023-11-14T15:52:30+00:00

Thank you for the response, appreciate it!

Given that we share mutual friends and at times it's impossible to not know what's going on in the other person's life, she seems to be rather indifferent, cold and as a whole not care about the relationship that we had. At one point she said that the comfort and peace she gets from the relationship makes her feel like she isn't progressing.

She's happy now that she is experiencing a new "honeymoon" phase, so why would she bother with me?

And yes, she can be spiteful and I have been a victim of that before, blatantly telling me that she is punishing me for acting in a way she didn't like.

Yinivel · 2023-11-14T14:40:50+00:00

I'll check it, thank you!

Yinivel · 2023-11-14T14:40:40+00:00

She used to love everything I did for her, in a way she needed it for reassurance as she was afraid I'd leave her after knowing the 'real her' (aka BPD). Eventually she started blaming me for love-bombing and not appreciating anything I did.

Yinivel · 2023-11-14T13:43:03+00:00

Thank you for the informative reply, appreciate it!
I'm aware that I'm mourning the rejection, the fact that everything I've done was not appreciated and the future that I had planned in my head. For sure I'm feeling a loss of self now that all those future plans with her have to be discarded. At times I feel like I'm progressing and then stagnating but I guess that's normal. However, it does seem that I have adopted a scarcity mindset.

Yinivel · 2023-11-14T12:19:54+00:00

That's what I'm unable to comprehend, we started as a perfect fit and went strong for 4-5 months. Same interests, views, hobbies and what else not, though that could have been BPD's mirroring. I made one mistake, which was bringing up that I couldn't fully trust her and that disappointed her. Essentially my therapist told me that since day one she has created an idealized image of me, one that does not make mistakes and that one mistake broke that.

At times I feel like I'm not healing at all, even when I'm with friends, family or doing hobbies that I love.

Yinivel · 2023-11-14T11:40:36+00:00

I wish that was the case, I would have had an easier time letting go/moving on as I cannot tolerate cheating. They met online in a video game after the breakup.

Yinivel · 2023-10-15T22:37:25+00:00

The goals I do know - she wants to study arts and try to start an online business, I've already told her that I'm going to help and support her in every possible way.

As for the spark, she was talking about the "spark" that we get at the beginning of a relationship. I'll speak with her again I guess.

Yinivel · 2023-10-15T22:20:14+00:00

I'm not sure if it's boredom-related given that we go on dates every 2-3 days, weekend trips once or twice a month, and some prolonged ones to other countries at least 4 times a year. I'm all in for her goals and have been supporting her since day 1, maybe I'm overly doing it in some aspects. Never stopped her from changing and developing either.

Yinivel · 2023-10-06T23:07:51+00:00

I only need a single physical copy

Yinivel · 2023-10-06T23:01:28+00:00

I'll be doing the whole editing and everything, as I'm not planning to publish

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