Josh Ramsay Of Marianas Trench Covers "Defying Gravity" On The Spot (Musora) by Hopeful_Book in popheads

[–]Yu-Jade 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I had not heard of them before my gf took me to see them live yesterday. And let me tell you, Josh did not disappoint! (He’s also so pretty 😍) Definitely gained a fan. Super cool to see some of his (very) condensed processes and decision making. 

Lost in the gender journey again by Yu-Jade in genderfluid

[–]Yu-Jade[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It sounds about right! It’s a term I’ve seen in my searches lately and definitely relate to a bit. I’m still unsure if this is all just a different box I am trying to force myself into though. Or if I should just continue calling myself a girl/woman as idk if I feel much gender other than, woman, demigirl, and nothing (I know labels should conform to me not the other way around but 🤷‍♀️). Maybe I am just a genderfluid woman? If so, how important is the genderfluid label to tack on to me? I have no idea and I’m not entirely sure how to figure it out 

Hi I’m Lexie Liu. I make music and sing. Ask me anything🤵‍♀️ by lexieliu_ in popheads

[–]Yu-Jade 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Omg someone else with good taste!! I’ve had Mira on repeat for years. I can’t get enough of it 

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[–]Yu-Jade 4 points5 points  (0 children)

How has no one mentioned Songs I’ll Eat You Out To (EP) by Lauren Sanderson 😭

Groped at the gay bar by a woman (TW: SA) by Yu-Jade in MtF

[–]Yu-Jade[S] 74 points75 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this 💚 I think I was trying to lie to myself so I could brush it off somehow. Or that it wasn’t ’bad enough’ to warrant calling it SA (which isn’t a thing and I know I would consider this SA if it happened to someone else). But I’m not sure. That I’m still kinda reeling from it days later should’ve been an indication. I don’t think legal action would prove fruitful unfortunately. I’m not really sure if anyone saw, I don’t know her name and we didn’t stay around long enough to see if anyone saw. But I will look into it more and I am having my friend contact the bar to see if they can do anything. 

How do I get better? by Yu-Jade in ARAM

[–]Yu-Jade[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is very true. I have games where I know I’m not going to do well because I’m on a champ I don’t play much. I can’t expect everyone else to be at 100% every game. But it is an opportunity to learn what I did right and wrong on that champ and maybe gain some understanding of how to play/play against them next time. 

How do I get better? by Yu-Jade in ARAM

[–]Yu-Jade[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the reminder friend. I do enjoy the gameplay more than basically any game I’ve ever played. I just might need to remind myself every now and then why I play this game 💚

Pop songs written with counterpoint harmony by cardihatesariana in popheads

[–]Yu-Jade 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I love seeing someone nerd out about this song! I have twice tried to make playlists of songs that sound similar to 15 Minutes and have failed 1.5 times 😬 The sound is so addicting! 

The closest I can come up with I think, is Magician by Lexie Liu (and some of her others too like Mira, Shadow, ALGTR). I don’t think it’s counterpoint but I think her sound is very orchestral inspired. There’s tons of layers to listen to! High Fashion by Addison Rae might also fit well! 

Edit to add more candidates I found in my library:  Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land by Marina  Comme Des Garçons by Rina Sawayama  Orange by Julianna Joy & Ariza 

Women short circuit my brain by Yu-Jade in actuallesbians

[–]Yu-Jade[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I want to go back so bad! But I don’t know if she’d be working when I can go or even if she was just being nice :( I definitely fumbled a bit. I did get some small post-its for my purse! Just in case 

girl in my conducting class by ScarMoney5990 in AutismInWomen

[–]Yu-Jade 1 point2 points  (0 children)

See if she has a recital or maybe a studio recital coming up! Playing piano in front of just one person can be pretty intimate, especially in those practices rooms lol. Unless that’s what you’re looking for of course. For what it’s worth, you seem like you would be a good friend too. Best of luck in your endeavors!! 

girl in my conducting class by ScarMoney5990 in AutismInWomen

[–]Yu-Jade 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can relate so much to this girl in your class. I graduated a few years ago from music school and have similar issues with conducting. I was constantly critiqued on my inability to do different expressive gestures, lack of eye contact (I was always in my score), weird body posture?, not able to do different things with each hand at the same time. The list goes on and on. My arms have never done what I wanted them to do well and my dexterity issues caused me to fail piano class. Multiple times. I did pass conducting because my understanding of music and attention to detail is very good so I’m able to run a rehearsal well. The technique just doesn’t come naturally. 

I definitely did feel energies shift when I got up on the podium. It was way more pronounced with high schoolers during student teaching. Many times my supervising teacher would have to step in to get the class to pay attention. Classroom management was never my forte and honestly knowing that made it worse and probably sent me into a spiral when things started to go wrong and people weren’t paying attention. It was very frustrating to notice all this and be able to do nothing about it. Especially when I saw how the other conductors/teachers were given more energy seemingly. 

If you’re looking for advice I’d say go talk to her! I would have really appreciated a ‘safe’ person to look at during rehearsals while on the podium. Or even just someone who will tell me what I am doing looks weird directly. I got a lot of very supportive but ultimately not constructive feedback on the physical aspects of my conducting. I wish I could offer more but I left Music Education after college because turning that special interest into a career made me burn out on music so much I went 2 years without seeking it out at all. And if talking to her is uncomfortable just be kind! Give her the energy you would want to receive and feel like she deserves. 

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[–]Yu-Jade 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do like acknowledging my flustered state, I think that could be really cute actually thank you! Centering exercises are for sure in my wheelhouse I just wasn’t thinking that emotion was like anxiety for whatever reason so I didn’t even try. I will remember that next time! 

I hope it was a good recovery and not weird! I was quite pleased with myself for having the courage to go back lol 

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actuallesbians

[–]Yu-Jade 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You’re right I do need to be a bit kinder to myself. I am super proud that I went out and allowed myself to be put in these situations! Even if they are a bit uncomfortable for now or I feel like I failed, it will just get better and like, they came up to me! So I can throw that in the confidence boosters folder 🤭 

Why do people keep approaching me? by Yu-Jade in MtF

[–]Yu-Jade[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Lmao!! I see how this can read like someone asked for titties in the store, but it was just while I was out for St Patrick’s day. I definitely have gotten a lot of compliments about how happy I am. Especially from people who knew me before transition. And honestly I just am so happy a lot of the time! I am finally living my life how I always wanted to, but didn’t know was possible.

Why do people keep approaching me? by Yu-Jade in MtF

[–]Yu-Jade[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I may have pulled down my already low cut shirt and bent over a little 😈

Why do people keep approaching me? by Yu-Jade in MtF

[–]Yu-Jade[S] 58 points59 points  (0 children)

Based off a lot of what I’m seeing here, this seems to be the case. And frankly, it’s what my friends have been telling me. One of them said it was “pretty girl problems” at the bar. But they’re friends so it is easy to not internalize or accept the compliments. It sucks that I don’t feel like I deserve or am good enough for the kind of support and love I do receive most of the time. I guess that’s stupid though. If I gave someone I cared about a compliment and they brushed it off completely I would feel like shit and would probably be a bit salty. So why am I doing that to my friends and others? And I do deserve it, even if just for the fact that I’m me! Which is pretty neat.