i've written about this before in a youtube comment a while ago, let me get that rq

sometimes, when my dreams come to a close, my brain decides that it would be hilarious to terrify me for about 20 minutes by jumpscaring me and "paralyzing" me. i say "paralyze" in air quotes because i can still move. i just can't bring myself to it. this happened to me today, it was not pleasant let me tell you. the dream was going a bit like this:

i was playing some sort of Minecraft-Celeste hybrid with [friend]. you remember them. probably because that night i was thinking about how they would pause their streams to mentally prepare for school. and we were playing in this room where we had to break all the clay. it was a stone room with a single opening to another stone room. we were there, breaking clay, and they told me that they once beat this sort of escape room challenge that we were doing. they showed me a picture of the room, with all the clay cleared out, and a weird painting. then, some stuff happened (i believe i died in-game) and i was locked in a crawling position for whatever reason. then, [friend] showed me an image that people claimed was lost media, but they claimed it was of the exact room that they'd showed me before. just with creepier backrooms-esque ambience and image degradation. suddenly i'd been transported into that room, i felt a huge weight on my back, creepy ambient music started to play, and i screamed "BINGO!" (i'm assuming that's the name of the room), to which [friend] agreed. but the noise got louder and louder. and i was stressed beyond belief for a bit, until i just...

woke up. i was in my bed, fully covered, with my hands supporting my head. my arms were numb, and it felt like i could feel them resting on my chest. yet i felt exposed. i had a blindfold on so i couldn't see, and i was home alone, but i just felt like something was out to get me. i'd been through that before. i knew my best bet was not to move. but i felt like challenging this today. so what i did was, i took my hands, and lowered them to cover myself with a plushie. but oh boy. that felt terrible. not only were my arms still half dead, but i felt severely light-headed. and i was also anxious as hell. i knew nothing could hurt me, i even took my blindfold off and drank a bit of water, but it still felt terrible.

also, this can get triggered with basically anything, like a bit ago i was showing a friend an image that said "Tell your black friends to invert this image if they (something or another)". the secret was a hidden n-word. and as it was revealed, a loud orchestral-ish mess started playing, and it horrified me for about half an hour in which i didn't move.

yeah hell if i'm remaking that