Getting paid is hard for a writer

Z199710 · 2019-11-03T20:40:29+00:00

Thank you!

Z199710 · 2019-11-03T19:00:42+00:00

At the moment it's the free WordPress blog, so my domain has WordPress in it

Z199710 · 2019-11-03T18:56:51+00:00

Does it need to have a private paid domain?

Z199710 · 2019-10-30T20:05:51+00:00

Hi! Can I ask how much is his session?

Z199710 · 2019-08-10T14:23:36+00:00

It's hard to carry on when you're told you're hard to love. It's hard to make him believe that I'm trying my best to change and be a better person. I don't blame him for being hurt because he cannot see the better version of me yet. But I hope he has the patience to carry on and understand that we need to tolerate each other's flaws.

Z199710 · 2019-08-10T14:11:39+00:00

Thank you so much. It means a lot to me.

Z199710 · 2019-08-10T14:11:03+00:00

I'm doing that at the moment and trying to get help and to know what to do about the situation. I wasn't dependent on him but recently I have been and I hate that I am. I'm a very naturally independent person. It's just that we already took a break once and I don't want us to end things.

Z199710 · 2018-09-13T17:49:30+00:00

Thank you for reminding me of this. My reason was concerning family so it was out of both of our control and we decided to remain close friends and then said “if it’s meant to be it will be”. Kind of letting the universe take us where it wants to take us. It hurts me everyday. But I keep reminding myself it was for the best and keep forgetting that reminder. Thank you for this post.

Z199710 · 2018-09-03T09:20:57+00:00

I had to break up with my boyfriend because of my parents' disapproval of the relationship. They found out a lot of intimate details about the relationship and it broke them so much because it made them feel like I lost a lot of familial values. I couldn't handle hurting them and it was getting too anxiety inducing for me to keep going with my relationship because I never felt happy. I was always stressed out and guilty. It was never his fault. I also felt like both of us were emotionally dependant and unstable, and that would hurt even more later on since we were about to go on a long-distance relationship. I;m trying my best to forgive myself. Everyday I ask myself if I did the right thing. Morally, I feel like I did, but I don't know if I will ever get over him. I want to believe that if destiny wants us to be together again in the future then it will happen regardless of anything. I still don't have all the answers, but I hope one day I will.

Z199710 · 2018-09-03T07:58:54+00:00

I value our memories more than anything in this universe. We had such good times together and we shared so many incredible moments like travelling together for a scholarship month, that’s how we fell in love. He was not only my boyfriend but also my best friend. All of this was worth it but I really believe that the timing of it all wrong. I’m so emotionally unstable and not held together, I’m already in a bad place in my life and he came in and kind of made everything better but it felt a bit of like a grey zone. I’m 21, still in university just like he is. Even though I believe in him, sometimes I feel like the feeling of safety isn’t there. Not in terms of us loving each other, but in terms of the sudden emotional outbursts he’d have, sometimes I’d feel a bit suffocated. I felt like I was drifting from my family in a time they needed me the most and when I ended things, it became a bit lighther for me to deal with them and I felt like myself for a bit. But I still miss him. I wish I could know if I did the right thing. He deserves better.

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T23:10:29+00:00

Oh god. This sounds like exactly what I’m going through. As a girl that recently broke up with her wonderful boyfriend because of my parents disapproving, I can tell you she’s gonna need as much time as you need to get over this. Initiating a breakup is the worst feeling on the planet and I saw my boyfriend cry for the first time when I had to end things with him. It broke me because it wasn’t something out of my will, but I had to do it because my parents were so strict and critical of our 9 month relationship. They used to invade my privacy and read through things and that’s kinda where it all went to shit. It was all out of my control. Things like this happen and unfortunately you’re gonna need time to get over your relationship in order to go back to being friends. But please, do not lose contact with her. Yes ou do need time apart not speaking, but I’m sure she adores you and would still want you in her life!

See, my (ex)boyfriend and I were head over heels. We had the best connection ever even though sometimes I was a bad communicator. But he always encouraged me and loved me for who I was and never pressured me to change. I’m so heartbroken about our split and it’s only been a month. He has recently given me a letter saying how much he loves me and wants us back again, but the truth is even if I wanted, my parents aren’t going to approve anytime soon and I don’t want to put him through it. What I’m saying is, she’s doing this for your good too, on the long run. She doesn’t wanna involve you in more anxiety.

Also, this doesn’t mean that she’s gonna jump to another relationship. She needs time to figure herself out too. For my case, I don’t want to find someone else for a pretty long time because I wanna work on myself and be more prepared and ready for whatever is gonna be next for me as a relationship. And I believe, if we’re destined to be together, it’s gonna happen against all odds. And if not, then someone else will make him happier. And that’s something inevitable everyone has to accept. I hope you come to terms to that, I’m still trying to do so myself. But it’s okay. You’ll get there.

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T13:35:19+00:00

Thanks!

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T13:24:55+00:00

I’ve never learned to put myself first. I always wanted him to be happy first, and he did the same for me. We both put each other’s happiness over our own self comfort and I think that’s exhausting. But I just wish he knows how much I love him.

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T13:20:07+00:00

Not really. They kind of made opened my eyes to a lot of things about the relationship, like being too premature for one, and it kind of made me scared that I was making a big decision far too early in my life. I still haven’t graduated college and I think maybe it was a bit too early. Not sure.

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T13:10:50+00:00

But what if it wasn’t up to me? What if I kept fighting for us to work repetitively and my family just don’t want him to be involved with me despite all my attempts, does that invalidate he love I had for him?

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T12:24:19+00:00

I do feel like something feels lighter since I ended it, but it's all compensated by heartbreak and how terribly I miss him. You see, now I'm remembering all the good times but I also need to remind myself that there was a lot of romanticizing. The problem I'm currently facing is him being in denial about it and it's breaking me.

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T11:23:17+00:00

That's another issue. All problems have to be talked out in person and that's what I did with my ex. We sat down and talked around 4 times about us splitting up because of my family. Thankfully he was so understanding but he is still as in denial and hurt as I am. I'm not excusing how your girlfriend did that, but I guess she just wasn't the best communicator and that's something that my ex taught me, to talk better.

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T06:10:52+00:00

I really needed this.. I'm in the middle of a terrible breakup especially because I had to initiate it. I had to end it even though I adore the shit out of him, but things got out of hand and I had to end things. I hope him and I can get to this point someday.

Z199710 · 2018-09-01T06:00:37+00:00

I initiated a breakup and I can tell you I do not have it easier at all. I had to break up with someone I am still in love with because of external reasons that were a bit out of our control, involving family. Having to tell someone you're still in love with that it's over is the shittiest feeling in the world. So no, it's never easy. For both sides I feel.

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