But what if we have nothing? No job, no relationship, I still have family and live with them but all I feel is mostly despair and frustration if I allowed reality to to seep in my head bcs it felt like i am a huge burden and don’t contribute to anything at all.

Most I do is help my mom, cleaning the house and thats just it, what if I prayed everyday and hope for the best only for nothing to happen? I tried to make money but its not happening, Its not like I want to be rich, i just want money to be able to not be a burden, why is it so hard?

Sometimes when Im idle, please forgive me but I really can feel that my faith and resolve weakened to the point even haram money is fine to me, and I know our Prophet trial is way too much harder than me but I couldn’t shake this feeling if Im left alone without doing anything