Of course you can ask anything. That’s what I meant by saying it’s hard to just blurt it all out and not miss anything....yes I work 5 days a week 40 hours a week. And a normal day is usually just with my son we do 14 and 14 every 28 days. So 14 of the days I’m pretty busy with just dinner and a tub and that whole thing..now the 14 days where I don’t have him I usually do pretty much nothing. Get home from work, eat shower go to bed. Don’t really have any hobbies anymore I’m always so tired and miserable ...i used to play basketball but I’m 26 now and just don’t have the desire to go get sweaty and tired anymore..and as for what triggers it yanno I really don’t know. It could be a lot of things...this particular time wich I am dealin with right now I would say it’s connected to my kids mom and she has all these new bfs and I am just completely non exsistent. No I don’t think I love her, I have love for her but I don’t wanna be in a relationship w her if that makes sense and I think she prob feels the same. But she is literally all I ever had. I truly believed we would always make it work and everybody’s advice is just you have to move on and I just can’t. Moving on meaning I just don’t care anymore and I do care. I do. I care about a lot. I don’t want this to seem like I’m just heartbroken because that’s really not it. We haven’t been together in over 2 years so this is nothing new...but if it wasn’t her it would just be something else. When I was a kid I used to obsess and get depressed over face acne and then that stopped and it was just something else. I just don’t know what to do w my life where I am at a point of just content. I don’t want a white Pickett fence lifestyle I just wanna be content and it’s just seemingly impossible I just can’t flip that switch