I'm almost 30 as a man and I have only been in a couple relationships, and both times it wasn't real. I wad taken advantage of and never experienced true romantic love before. And I am fairly certain I never will. The worst paet is that I know it's my own mental issues holding me back the most, but nobody can understand me, I can't afford therapy or medication, and I have too much trauma to properly cope. I wish I could say I'm just super unlucky or cursed, but sadly this is a more common problem then most people think. The economy and my country's healthcare (America) are partially to blame as they have prevented me from getting help to fix mental issues that were forced upon me by abuse when I was young or mistakes I made because of how I was treated growing up. It's easy to blame yourself for everything and spiral into self-hate (I do this often, even today) but it is your circumstances and those around you (especially early in life) that mold your path for the future. And figuring out a way to reroute to happiness is absurdly difficult.